thanks

....for making it happen. i could just smile all day =)

and yes, i would love to have coffee with you....everyday! =)

look what i got!

** ok this is my first post this month. im so sorry. i have two sensible blog post on queue but i don't have the freakin time to finish it. (blame it all on bugzilla! lol)

well, i didn't planned to shop today but who can resist this sweet pair of shoes?

this is so ME right? haha! ok end of share....... back to bugzilla.... more meaningful post later i promise! =)

hey you!

welcome to my closet! =) i am so proud... i'm a certified "dalaga" *wink wink* it's so pretty! i love it! =)

DORA'S "TO BUY" LIST:
1. black lace dress from topshop (check)
2. hot pink dress (check)
3. red wrap around dress
4. bloody red "fuck me" shoes (check)
5. black patent oxfords shoes
6. beige patent wedge pumps
7. sweet undergarments from topshop (check check check check!)
8. black elegant party dress (check check!)

............and................

my ultimate dream shoes *drum roll*

dear God,

I want to have a pair of Jimmy Choo's for Christmas... please.. i will be very happy. =)

- dora

DISCLAMER:
i am not a shopaholic, its just that..... with my situation right now, i need this to keep my sanity in place! (ok excuses.. lol!)

just one dance

I am thinking about you everyday. Despite my inhumane work schedule, I still find time to rekindle those moments. Little things that made my heart beat faster. Everything I do I always get a snapshot of you. The magic that I am waiting for, the spark that I'm looking for, I surprisingly found and felt with you. God, I miss you.... I am not used to the feeling of missing someone, longing for that specific person so badly... This is not me.... I hate it!

The world looks slightly different when you view it from another angle. Everything that seemed true and real to you can change almost in an instant when something, someone makes you see it in a new light.

Everything I’ve come to know is gone because you came along. I wouldn’t have it any other way. -- 55.tumblr.com

I know you'll never be mine
but I'm gonna wait for all time
to have just one dance
just one dance with you

ok..

sumesegway ng pagb-blog.... putaenaaaaaaaaaaa! namimiss ko nang matulog! ano bang feeling nun? nakalimutan ko na ang tinatawag nateng dreamland! isang bwan na akong ganito. nakakapagoooood! waaaaaaaaaaaaaah! aiza mag online kna. kelangan ko ng angst absorber! it is 2 fucking am!

i wanna be......

a superwoman.

Dear God,

Please take my back pain away.. i need to work. i need to deliver something today... pleaaase.......

PS:
let me see him today... make me happy.

- dora

because i am sad.....

i went shopping! =)

for no reason at all, i really feel awful today.. maybe it's the time of the month... maybe i miss my family... maybe i just miss my friends... or maybe im just tired. anyway, i gave myself some treat.. one bigtime shopping treat!

here's what i bought:

1. a really nice dress from topshop

price: don't ask.
this is the most expensive dress i ever bought. i've been eyeing this dress for months already but haven't had the courage to buy it because it is super expensive. it is not practical. I heard topshop is on sale so i hurried to the boutique only to find out that this specific dress is still on its original price! oh what the hell, i deserve this fancy dress! i've worked hard for it! this is the last piece on the store so it only meant that the dress is also waiting for me... it really looks good on me. =) i feel so pretty!*wink wink*

2. red pumps from janylin

original price: Php 2295
discounted price: Php 1147.5
when i had my fab topshop dress, i can only think of one shoes that will perfectly go with it. red pumps! OMG, i feel so "dalaga" wearing this.. really nice and sexy. =)

3. a pair of shorts from sm dep store

price: Php 399.95

to be honest, this is the only thing i planned on buying for today. i have out of town trip with my friends tomorrow and i wanted a new pair of shorts... then i figured i also need to buy a new..................................

4. cute slippers from sm dep store

price: Php 99.75
so cute. it matched my glow in the dark undergarment that i bought from topshop last week. heheh

i already planned my attire on friday....

and for tomorrow.

 

 

i hope everyday is a shopping day...... =)

yeah... my emotions can be a little pricey at times.. shopping is my anti depressant these days.... well, i am always sad so i shop a lot. hehe. if true love is on sale, i will buy 8 pairs of it. 4 for me, 2 for aiza and 2 for chamie! lol!

-- got to go. i have work to do. hehe =)

flaming shot

this happened a month ago when i was still a normal kid.... joke! one of sober club's flaming shots.We did it…..We did it….Hooray!

bacardi shot + fire = eeewness! lol



i can't wait til saturday... woohooo! out of town! shot!

for the nth time

i feel bad... in times like this kelangan ko ng mag aalaga saken... sawa na ko alagaan ang sarili ko magisa... i am so tired.. so sad... pms ba to? i wanna cry... i wanna shout... motherfucker! i am so tired!

hello laptop

naiiyak ako. wala akong time kahit matulog ngayon. sabi ko magshshopping ako to pamper myself but i don't have a f*cking time right now! i cannot spare even 2 hours to pamper myself. i miss my friends.. i miss my family. square na ba mukha ko? feeling ko mukha na akong laptop ngayon.... kahit sa yosi break nagbabasa ako ng nodes ng xml.. o ha.. o ha.. i told you what my life is like right now.....

anyway... enough of the rants.. konti na lang matatapos na..... KONTI NA LAAAAAAAANG! sana matuwa si boss.. sana makuha ko yung big paycheck.... SHOPPING GALOOOOORE!

busy busy

i am literally super busy right now. i can't even find time to sleep. lately, my only rest is when im on a cab or my "nakaw na tulog" at night. yeah.. i am doing a lot of things.. web stuff. yeah i'm such a dork.... i need a jowa!

freak!

major update:
ALL MY INTERNET ACCOUNTS HAS BEEN HACKED! mother f*cker!

now i know what stalking really means.. whoever you are, i'll pray for you. yeah.. i pray to God to take you on your sleep! I REALLY REALLY HATE YOU! YOU ARE CRAZY! go to hell you son of a b*tch! c'mon! you can do better than that! JERK!

funny

nag brat attack na naman ako kanina.. e pano...

ang scenario: offline ang lahat ng bpi sa buong paseo de roxas. super pissed si dora sabay tawag sa daddy nya.

dora: hello dad, bakit offline ang bpi? lahat ng bangko offline hindi ako maka withdraw.
dad: nagsi-system upgrade anak.
dora: e bakit kelangan ngayon mag system upgrade? gano katagal yan?
dad: 1 oras.
dora: 1 oras?!? e bakit hindi mo sinabi saken? hindi tuloy ako maka withdraw!
dad: mamaya ka na mag withdraw baka ma debit ka pa.
dora: e anong gagawin ko kelangan ko na magwithdraw? tatry ko dito sa bangko sa tabi.

si dora pagdating sa bangko..... yay! online na! sabay text kay dad.

dora: online na! hehe
dad: buti naman.

oh yeah.. i'm such a brat. i know..that's what i love about daddy, he always know how to handle my hormonal attacks. fine fine, i know i said i will change. oh what the hell! i am me. i am not that cruel you know that!

malinis na puso

believe it or not, gusto kong maging mabuting tao. so.......... i've come up with 3 things na inniimplement ko na (or coming soon pa lang) sa life ko.

1. give more to charity
    - nagt-tip na ko sa taxi.. iniisip ko na lang, makakatulong sa kanila pag hindi ko na lang kukunin yung sukli ko pag hindi naman kalakihan.
    - madalas ko na pinagshoshopping ang kapatid ko na walang kapalit na serbisyo. lol!

2. control your temper
   - oh yeah... i'm trying not to be a brat most of the time. nagta-try na ko mag taas ng EQ ngayon.. minsan guilty ako... minsan natatarayan ko pa rin yung care taker ng pad ko (pano kase laging nasa telepono).. yeah im sorry. im still adjusting.

3. do not say or think of anything bad about others
    - e di inadmit ko na! guilty as charged! haha! ayoko na nga e.. AYOKO NAAAAAAA! pero what to do? tinatry ko wag sabihin pero nagkakaron naman ng thought bubble sa head ko...

3 na lang muna.. 3 lang kaya ko i-commit for now e..

minsan iniisip ko, graduate ba ako ng isang bitch academy or something? hindi naman ako masamang tao pero hindi din naman ako mabuti! e ano ako? hmmmmm ako ba ang gradient between black to white? OMG! i am not evil, i am just not that nice!

i need to have some soul searching!

mr. nurse

Dear Mr. Nurse,

Pwede mo bang alagaan ang heart ko? I hope you know CPR because you take my breath away!

masakit ba? masakit ba nung nahulog ka sa langit? siguro maraming ganyan sa heaven. haaay take me there! take me there!

may gusto ka ba? kelangan mo ba ng bagong cellphone? laptop? rubber shoes? masipag naman akong tao mr nurse, pwedeng hindi ka na magtrabaho.. ako na bahala sayo. hindi naman ako demanding. isa lang ang task mo, ang ibsan ang kalungkutan ng puso ko.

isa lang naman ang gusto kong malaman........ mr nurse, do you believe in love at first site, or do i have to walk by again? *wink wink*

tamang kwento lang

absent na naman ata si madam, nakapag palit na ko ng template hindi pa nag oonline.. maganda at maraming nangyare sa araw ko........

1. simulan naten ng umaga, maaga akong gumising para pumunta sa barangay hall at kumuha ng cedula. ang gobyerno talaga parang public school ang opisina. lol! first time ko lang gumawa ng ganyang transaksyon na hindi kasama ang nanay ko. hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin.. kaya yun.... nakapagbayad ako ng mahal....

cedula girl: neng Php 518.
dora: 518? sabi ng mommy ko 10 pesos lang yan e!
cedula girl: (explain explain chu chu chu chu)

p*ki ng ina 518! 518 para sa isang maliit na papeeeeel! sama ng loob koooooooooo! since nandon na din naman ako, bayad na lang ako.. pero bwakana bitch! naisahan ako dun a..

2. pagdating ng 1130 umalis ako ng opisina para mag lunch sa bundok ng mckinley. nakakamiss din naman pala ang mga jologs and not-so-jologs kong officemates. nililinis ata ni motherboard ang kanyang kunsensya kaya sya nagpapakain araw araw. umalis ako sa bundok mga bandang 2 (ako na! ako na ang 3 hours mag lunch! lol!) dala dala ang bonggang bonggang pangkabuhayan package! wooohoooo! napakasarap mabuhay!

3. 230 ako nakarating ng opisina.. minadali kong tapusin ang tinatawag kong "task" para naman hindi masyadong nakakahiya kay boss...... ok moving on..... tama na muna ang programming stuff..

4. nag ym ang nakatampuhan kong kaibigan... ayun ok naman, alam na siguro nya kung pano ko tanchahin. goodjob kase binigyan namen ng panahon para palipasin ang init ng pangyayare at bugso ng damdamin. dahil kelangan namen mag catch up, nagshopping kame ng bigtime pagkatapos ng trabaho. abangan nyo ang soot ko sa tuesday. lol! oo na katas! alam ko.. lol!

speaking of tuesday, chong kitakits! TBA ang location.. oo madam, sa wednesday kna naman makakatulog dahil required ang attendance mo!

to sum it all up, etp ang mga conclusions ko:
1. nakakamiss magmura. lol! putek twice a week na lang ata ako nagmumura ngayon! shet! nangangati na ang dila ko!
2. it really is so nice to have someone to talk to...
3. masarap din maging jologs minsan.
4. inaantok na ko, ngayon lang nag online si madam.. (lagi ko sya dinadamayan sa friday shift nya)
5. fab ang birthday dress ko. lol!

paasa ka

leche!

my dream birthday

ilang taon na din na parang lumilipas lang na araw ang birthday ko.. yung tipong napadaan lang... ganito siguro talaga pag namumuhay kang mag isa. parati kong kasama mga kaibigan ko, yet i feel alone... i feel empty.... i feel sad.... oh yeah, birthday blues.

you know what i really really miss on my birthday? for 20 years, every waking birthdays of my life, i would wake up hearing my dad's voice saying "happy birthday taba!" aaaw, bigla akong nalungkot. i miss daddy, i miss my family. dad will cook fetuccine alfredo, the best fetuccine in town! yan ang default na handa sa bahay. never nawala ang fetuccine sa kahit anong okasyon.. and you know what? hindi ako nagsasawa.. the best ever! and at night, before i go to sleep, sisilipin nya ko sa kwarto ko. hihintayin nya na makatulog ako. sya lagi yung taga patay ng ilaw ng room ko. para bang mine-make sure nya na sya yung mag open and mag close ng birthday ko. eto yung default kong birthday sa bahay... still, i am happy and i feel special.

syempre i still want a celebration with my friends but i'm more excited in celebrating it at home... simple but sweet. :)

last kiss

Sabi nila choosy daw ako, low EQ, mataray, mataas standards pero hinde.. Hindi ko pa lang sya nakikita.. I just want my next one to be my last one. :)


"The right guy, he's out there. I'm not just gonna go kiss a whole bunch of losers to get to him... when I finally get kissed, I'll know. I've kissed a guy, I just haven't felt that thing... That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time." -- Josie Gellar, Never Been Kissed

10 days na lang!

¡feliz cumpleaños! see you there! *wink wink*

spot-an mo to

iniiwasan kong mag strike ang brain cells ko kaya simple at maiksi lang ang post na to. last saturday, i cut my hair short.. really really short... hehehe!


yun lang.. end of share..

can we stay like this forever?

5 years ago we were like this..

kumakanta ng where's the love sa philman, umoovernight ng walang nagagawa sa 8th floor, chumachant sa calculus.. parang kelan lang ng ginawa nateng hobby ang mag pusoy dos at ang mag tong-its sa caf at sa miding.. laro lang ng laro tayo noon hanggang sa magtapos tayo at magtrabaho.

nanatili ang magandang pagsasamahan. linggo linggong nag iinuman.


halos naging stockholders na tayo ng w grill. araw araw na conference sa yahoo. ang unlimited na comments sa multiply.. nakakamiss ang mga panahon...



sabi nga nila..... a picture paints a thousand words.....



nalulungkot ako and i can't say why.. totoo ngang hindi na tayo mga bata. hindi na grades ang pinoproblema naten.. waaah! this is soooo sad! paabot nga ng baso!

we are like this.....


we are f*cking adults! shot!

tampuhan

itago na lang naten sya sa pangalang junior. si junior at ako ay opismates sa bundok ng mckinley. hindi ko masasabing talagang magkaibigan kame pero nakakalokohan at nakakakwentuhan ko sya. masayang kausap si junior. punong puno sya ng sense of humor.

dumating ang masaklap na balita nung hulyo. nagpaka otistik ako sa opisina.. bihira akong makipag usap sa ibang tao. naayos ang problema ko. back to normal na naman si dora. isang araw sa yosihan sa bundok...

ang drama:
dora: hi junior!
junior: deadma (masama ang mukha)
dora: o bakit?
junior: galit ako
dora: kanino? bakit?
junior: deadma
dora: saken?
junior: deadma sabay sabi sa mga kasama ng "tara na! akyat na tayo!"
supporting actor: tinapik ang likod ni dora sabay alis
dora: wow may something!

huwaw ang taray ng exit mo boi! e di ok.. ako deadma lang.. hanggang sa napansin kong hindi nga ako kinakausap ni junior.. isang hapon sa yosihan na naman....

ang drama:
dora: uy ano galit ka pa rin saken?
junior: pwede ba nag iisip ako ng trabaho dito!
dora: ok fine

kanina sa ym, ang drama: si dora nag reak sa status message..
dora: bkt?
junior: bkit ano?
dora: bkt work sucks
junior: db obvious?
dora: a..
dora: haha
dora: **** sucks
dora: *** sucks
dora: junior
dora: may problema ka ba saken
dora: ano ba issue mo
dora: tagal na kita tinatanong
dora: ok fine
dora: forget i asked

uhm.. ano to jowa? nagpapa amo ka ba? sabihin mo lang kase hindi ko hobby yun! hindi naman ako masyadong affected pero it bugs me pag alam kong may nagtatampo saken.. pero wow lang.. hindi ko gawain na mang amo.. hanggang 3 lang ang limit ko sa pagtatanong.. after nun wala na.. mabilis akong kausap.. kung ayaw mo e di fine.. saka sa usapang magkaibigang babae at lalake, parang hindi ata madalas na role ng lalake ang magtampo, madalas yang nasa script ng babae! di ba? di ba? di ba? so kung ako sayo sabihin mo na... ano ba? uhm.... may nasabi ba ko? may nagawa ba ko? binreak ko ba ang heart mo? haha chika lang.. pero ano ngaaaaaaaaa? sobrang wala akong idea... oh well.. sabi ko nga pagod na ko... kung ako sayo junior isulat mo na lang yan kay ate charo papanoorin ko na lang sa tv dahil inaantok na ko.. pagod na ko magtanong!

clean slate

i can't sleep. there's so many things running in my head right now. i just want to blow it all out. tomorrow august 4th, is a start of a new chapter in my life. i want to start it on a clean slate.

july had been a tough month for me, it made me realize who my real friends are. i love you guys.. super! i can't thank you enough for being there...

1. cat(my boss) - superb manager and a friend. you have been very strong and understanding. you were my backbone at the time i thought i'm gonna fall. i can't thank you enough. just like what you said to me, i also have nothing but praises for you.. thank you for considering me as your friend.
2. chamie - you have always been my shock absorber. whenever i'm talking to you i feel secure. i know whatever happens, you will always take care of me.. you're like a big sister(really).
3. madam - you are the leader of my cheering squad! thank you for uplifting my soul. whenever i feel sad i talk to you. you always make sure that i smile despite of everything that has happened to me. you're really one of a kind.
4. irene - eventhough we don't spend much time together, i know that you're my friend.. you're always there.. online... you were never busy for all of us. i can tell you anything without thinking of you judging me. you're one of the real person i've known.
5. gen - i was so touched when you asked me how i was.. as in... even if you're happy and contented right now, you're still there... asking me how i was coping.
6. she - you are so far yet i can feel you hugging me in times of my discomfort. through the years you're always consistent. you never left me. always there listening to all my rants. you never get tired of me. i can always feel your love.

yeah.. what happened last july was a big bomb for me and i can say, it made me tougher. i'm sorry but i just want to write all i want to write right now... beware, i think this will be a very long post...

i will start my story with a new advertising executive in our office. her family is a close friend of our ceo, she studied nursing in college and it is her first real job. everybody's eyes are on her because everybody thinks she only get in because of nepotism. last friday, i've learned that a company allegedly pulled out their account on us because of her. i can hear people talking about her and the situation. i feel bad for her. it is unfair, everybody makes mistakes.. don't let her take all the blame.. she has her superior and a managing director.. for me, how can they let this happen? she's a fresh grad for crying out loud!

i can put myself on her shoes. i've been in a not so different situation a few years back. i know how it feels when you know that everybody is watching your every move waiting for you to commit mistake. being bullied by some power tripping bitches in the office(hell yeah.. offices have queen bees too!). being doubted by your superiors(why the hell did they hired me anyway?). it was hard.. hard to prove yourself everyday only to find out that their eyes were closed because you're not like one of them.

it's not proper to name names right now but i'm sorry i just have to say this. just now, i realized i revered the wrong person. for so many years, i looked up to you. and now, thinking about it... pasimpleng kups ka pala. yes you are good on what you do.. but personality wise? hmm i doubt it.. i'm sorry for all the revelations but i just get so tired... tired of trying everything for your respect. yes, my eyes are wide open right now.. you and your posse will never approve of me. and the funny thing is? I DON'T GIVE A DAMN!

i'm the type of person who never forgets. maybe that's the thing about me.. last month was tough. i'd been on a roller coaster emotion. there came a time when i thought of those people in the past. maybe they were right about me... maybe i don't have what it takes... that maybe this is just not for me... but being a genuine brat, i want to prove them wrong! i want to prove myself wrong! i am dora! i am good, I AM SO GOOD! i may not be the typical "dev" person that you know but i have passion. passion to do my craft. and i have a dream.. a dream that you, "mr. conceited" and your posse can never steal no matter what you say... no matter what you do..

there. i'm done. i'll start over.

i am mad

yes and i super hate you.. you're such a pain in the ass!

greatest love

sabi nila, sa buhay ng isang tao meron daw isang "greatest love". siguro at the age of 24 hindi ko pa nararamdaman/nakikita yun.. pag pinag usapan ang greatest love 2 couples lang yung naiisip ko...

1. madam and matias


--> oo chong hinalukay ko ang blog mo makakuha lang ng malaking picture.. ang tyaga ko lang kumlick haha! teka.. parang magkamukha kayo?

hindi ko na siguro kelangan iexplain kung bakit sila... sila na ang storyang pinagbawalan na ng tadhana but they seem to make it work. i give credits to both of them.. ang galing! even if hindi ko pa nami-meet yung guy, alam ko... hindi kna makakakita ng ganyang love kahit kanino kahit saan..

2. carry and mr. big

alam kong hindi sila true to life story.. but... think about it. they got married at the age of 40. they've been dating for like 10 years before nila narealize na sila talaga ang meant na magsama.. they've been with other partners.. they didn't believe in marriage at first but there came a time that they decided to settle down as husband and wife..

*****************
sila lagi yung pegs ko pag naiisip ko ng phrase na "great love". siguro meron talagang isang tao... na kahit anong gawin mo, sya lang talaga.. kahit kanino ka i-partner ng tadhana, walang makakalamang dun sa tao na yun sa buhay mo.. i want to experience that.. yung magmahal ng tunay(yeah.. emo alert!) i want to find that someone who i can be crazy with.. yung taong kaya kong i-compromise ang maraming bagay makasama lang sya.. yung taong matatakot akong mawala saken.. someone na titingnan pa lang ako, kumpleto na araw ko...

i like corny.. i'm looking for corny all my life...

happy hour

jokes + programming = fun! i miss the girls... i miss the "happy hour" =)

epal ka

ang epal mo lang.. you're voice is always all over the place! i hate you! i really really haaate you! thank God I'm not working with you! ok.. i silently promised that i will try to be nice.. i am trying.. trying so haard not to be irritated by you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm sorry but you are soooo annoying! ikaw na ang kumuha ng epal award this year!

and... oh please.. don't think you're cool because you look like this

BACK OFF MAN! STFU!

OMG!

bago ang lahat, i am super tired! sakit pa rin ng likod ko! more than a week na.. OA!

ok eto na... nagulat ako nung nakita ko to kanina sa office...........


anak anakan ng lahat ng nanay! ang dameeeeeeeeee! nakakatakot! isang kahon! putakte!

FYI:
malambot pala sya.. parang gummy bears lang.. hahaha!

ang malungkot na mckinley hill

puki ng inang panahon yan nadamay ang emosyon ko ngayong hapon! nagparamdam ang nakaraan....

una: nang marinig ko ang kantang to..

nakita ko at nadama ko yung scene nung una mong pinarinig ang kantang to.. yun lang.. namiss kita ng onti.. napaisip ako.. oo nga we're almost there. sori. hindi ako nakarating sa finish line.

pangalawa: nang nagpm ka ng.....

A: g
A: anjan kb?
A: g are you there?
A: mushta?
A: may tatanong sana ako sayo
gaze: yup
gaze: bkt
A: uy g yes nag reply ka
A: hehe

biglang nawala ang pangungulila ko sayo.. bumalik ako sa idle state ng pag iisip sayo.. sori.. sori.. sori.. (oo na ako na ang feelingera.. but what to do? hindi ako yung taong namimilit na kumausap sa taong ayoko naman kausapin..) nadama ko ang kasiyahan mo nung nakita mong nag reply ako.. sori talaga.. hindi na kita kayang kausapin ng normal. palagi akong paiwas.. palayo.. pasensya.....

bakit ba ganon ako? napaka boo ko talaga.. haha! e di sana masaya na ko ngayon.. pero hindi rin.. hindi rin.. hindi uubra.. hindi aakma..

may mga bagay na hindi swak.. siguro tayo yun.. pasensya.. mali ako.. hindi dapat kita ginaganyan.. sori.. that's all i can say.. sori...

part time

dahil nga sa gusto ko ng bagong gadget, napaisip akong maghanap ng dagdag na trabaho para sa dagdag na kita.. kahapon pa akong naghahanap ng part time job pero bakit ganon? bakit parang mas mahirap maghanap ng part time kesa sa full time job?

dahil dito, napaisip ako.. ano ba ang gusto kong gawing pagka kitaan ngayon? ano ba ang gusto kong gawin sa free time ko after office?

2 lang naman ang kaya kong gawin sa buhay ko..

1. mag program --> almost 4 years ko na tong ginagawa professionally.. eto lang ang alam kong trabaho.. kung hindi sa programming, hindi ko na alam kung san pa ko papasok.. pero ayoko namang magpadugo ng ilong bente kwatro oras sa darating na mga bwan.. gusto ko ng part time na fun.. yung colorful.. yung more social..

2. magpa cute --> oo na.. umaamin naman ako.. hobby ko na yan.. ang saya lang kung may kumpanyang magbabayad ng malaki para lang magpa cute ka.. haha! magputatching na lang kaya ako? NO DEAL!

hmm.. ang hirap naman! ano kaya? encoder? researcher? mag SEO kaya ako at tumae ng pages kagaya ni madam? wooooh!

gusto ko ng....

netbook!
LENOVO ideapad S10 6cells 10.2in (RED 59019913 and Pink 59017183)

target date: on or before sept 1, 2009

sheet sobrang gusto ko! wag na lang kaya ako kumain makabili lang neto? haha!

ang buhay programmer

minsan.. maja-justify mo talaga kung bakit humihingi ng malaking sweldo ang mga programmers..

number 1:
naging hobby mo na ata ang magpa dugo ng ilong araw araw.. hanggang pagtulog, hanggang panaginip.. nadadala mo ang sinusulat mong pending application. kasama na sa buhay mo ang bumuo ng logic at mag troubleshoot ng errors.

number 2:
inaasahan ng lahat na alam mo ang lahat basta may koneksyon sa tinatawag nating "computer" at "internet". hello, hindi einstein ang pangalan namen.. may mga bagay na hindi pa rin namen alam at pag aaralan pa lang.

number 3:
ikaw ang pinaka huli sa sistema sa project.. pag mabagal ang designer mo, lagot ka.. ikaw ang tatambling pagcocode sa huli. at pag nagpapa check ka na ng finished product, pag may nakitang ayaw ang iba sa layout.. naku.. recode ka cheng.. (kahit pa sabihin mong nagpa approve na ng layout bago mo umpisahang mag code)

number 4:
kahit mali na ng data encoder/designer, sayo pa rin maba-badtrip. (bwisseeeeyt!)

number 5:
paghihirapan mong magawa ang isang effect.. bandang huli nagbago na pala ng isip ang client mo.. (sayang ang hilo mo pagccode) --> bawal mag reklamo

number 6:
nakakasalo ka ng "not-so-ganda" code/project..

number 7:
ikaw ang nag aadjust sa pakikipag usap/deal sa isang not so techie na tao.. ang hirap laaaaang.. minsan hindi mo maintindihan kung anong gusto pero sige pa rin.. kahit mga limang tamblings ang kelangan tatambling ka masunod mo lang gusto nya..

number 8:
babatuhan ka ng maraming projects at the same time.. maliit na mistake, malaki na sa iba..... hindi mo pwedeng sabihin na "gumagana pa rin yan.. nasobrahan lang sa margin.." o kaya naman hindi mo masasabi na "hindi pa naman na-aadvertise, beta pa lang.. pwede pa magkamali, madali lang ayusin yan.."

number 9:
programmer ka na, QA ka pa.. alam kong kasama sa trabaho ng programmer ang mag test, pero bilang isang programmer may makakaligtaan ka talagang i-test.. lalo na pag ikaw ang gumawa.. naka set kase sayo na ganito ganyan ang mangyayare.. minsan.. hindi mo maiwasan na makalimutang tumingin sa "out of the box" mistake na maaring mangyare (lalo na kung loaded ka)..

number 10:
kahit anong laki ng sahod mo, hindi pa rin matumbasan ang pagod mo sa trabaho... ibang klase.. ibang level ang sakit sa ulo...

--> naka abot ba hanggang jan? bawal ang negative reactions.. mainit ulo ko! yun! chika lang..

tabs

kasama na sa araw araw kong buhay sa umaga ang magbasa ng netvibes ko bago mag kape.. hindi ko na ata kayang mag internet kapag hindi netvibes ang first tab ng browser ko.. netvibes ang nagsisilbing "digital newspaper" ng aking buhay.. napadaan ako sa netvibes ni bossing idol mark.. haha nakakahiya..

example..

bossing mark's netvibes tabs and content:
1. markrenn.com (sige na ikaw na ang tunay na developer.. may sarili kang bigating website!)
2. web gurus (di ba ikaw yun?)
3. tech news (ikaw na ang propeta! isa kang alamat! haligi ng summit digital!)
4. politics and news (ok.. no comment! haha namiss kitang basagin dito sa tab mong ito..)
5. summit
6. friends (blogger friends)

barbee's netvibes tabs and content:
1. general (default tab.. nakalimutan ko na tanggalin)
2. communication (facebook widget and stuffs)
3. bloggers (blogs of my closest friends)
4. chismis (importante to no!)
5. office (summit websites)
6. interests (kung ano ano lang.. dora stuffs and all)

e yun.. napahiya ako sa sarili ko.. parang walang masyadong sense yung mga pinagbabasa ko sa umaga.. ayun.. so nag add ako ng isang bigtime tab.... tentenenen!


WEB STUFFS tab! haha! iseset ko syang default tab ng netvibes ko para hindi ko makalimutang daanan kada umaga.. tamad akong mag research e.. lalo na ang magbasa ng technical stuffs.. katamad kase, kaantok! pero yun.. since matanda na ko, kelangan ko na mag sipag.. kelangan ko na magseryoso sa work.. sa field ko.. yuun! maraming salamat designer chamie! marami kang na input na feed sa tab na to.. maraming salamat bossing idol mark! na inspire akong pagandahin ang mga binabasa ko sa araw araw! idol talaga kita forever!

idleness

one week na ata akong idle sa work! nabasa ko na ang lahat ng chismis sites maliban sa p3p! haha! ok eto.. jumoin na kayo mga explorer friends.. kunyari pa kayo e.. lol! click the link!

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number 1!

simula nung kabitan ko ng analytics ang minamahal kong blog, hindi ka na nawala sa taas! iba ka talaga! kaya pala maraming hits ang blog ko ngayon.. ikaw lang pala ang sagot! i wonder kung may report din sa gender ang analytics 80% siguro ng followers ko e girls dahil sayo.. haha!

alam kong nangako akong hindi na kita ibebenta.. pero......... sayang e.. sayang ang pageviews! lol!

yun! ang gwapo! teka teka..

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AGE: not so.... old (mukhang baby e)
STATUS: single and not complicated (lol!)
LOOKING FOR: someone na kaya daw syang pasunurin (boss ata hanap mo men)

DISCLAIMER:
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if interested, just contact me. i have 24/7 operation...

-- love you baby boy!

A!

I love you, I miss you and I wanna be with you..

Finally I know what I want.. Finally I'm sure that it's you.. I know I don't have the courage to say it but I'm sure about how I feel for you. You make me smile.. You make me happy.. You made me feel the four letter word again.. It's been ages since I typed those words and really meant it.. Thank you. You helped me regain my trust in men.. You changed me..

I don't know what will happen next. Honestly I'm afraid.. I always refuse this feeling because I have this belief that the deeper I fall, the more I get hurt. But now, I don't care! Maybe it's time. I admit.. I'm in love.. With you..

wala akong ibang maisip.. ikaw lang

haay.. kelan kaya magiging tayo? kumota na ang blog na to sa dami ng lalakeng pinost ko.. but this feels different.. it feels good.. it feels right.. i can spend the whole day talking about you. when are we getting there? when will i hear the words? when will we say the words?

sana hindi ako nagkakamali.. sana hindi itong isang halimbawa ng sablay na storya.. sana marinig ko na sabihin mong gusto mo akong makasama.. sana.. sana.. sana matigil na ang kabaduyan kong ito.. boo! ang baduy ko sobra.. anyway.. yun lang..

para sayo: see you! maligo ka ha! lol

black and white

ok tamang frustration mode.. kung oo, oo! kung hinde, hinde! walang in between! ayoko ng ganon! 1 or 0 lang..

are we getting there?

You become my habit..

redhorse

sa susunod wag tayo magpaka bibo sa redhose..


sa susunod try naten wag malasing... bawal na ang redhorse! try naten na tayo naman mag alaga sa kanila.. lol!

ok madam.. ikaw na ang kumota this month..! lol! love you!


aiza, good kisser ba? kaya pala hindi maka get over si jd sa bowl issue... ganyan pala ka bigtime.. love you pare!