Sunday, October 31, 2010

Happy Halloween!

Posted by Gaze at 5:17 AM

from Friendster UI Team. :) and......


to you, it has been one hell of a week. thanks for being with me and for dealing with my roller coaster emotions. i may be stuck in depression if you're not by my side. :)

Monday, October 25, 2010

Can I Just Die Already?

Posted by Gaze at 9:16 PM
I'm so sick of dealing with everything. Why do I have to wake up with uncertainty everyday? I'm tired of hiding my pain. Can I just say "fuck off! just let me die!" I am so tired. Nobody knows what's going on my head right now. Its just me and my thoughts, me and my feelings. Its always been -- JUST ME!

The only constant person in my life walked away from me. My only source of love and happiness. The only person who gives me a reason to believe that life is beautiful closed his doors on me. Now, how will I keep my sanity in place? I hope I won't wake up anymore. I wanna die.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

masakit ba?

Posted by Gaze at 12:30 AM
26 years yan ng suppressed feelings. ang sakit di ba? sinabi ko naman sayo kelangan ko ng space. wag mo ko i-provoke. wag mo kong pilitin. kaso addicted ka na ata sa conflict. o hayan! kayanin mo! sa pagka bitch kong ito, buong buhay akong nanahimik. kahit kelan hindi ako lumaban. sinanay ko ang sarili ko na baliwalain ang sama ng loob. lagi kong pinipilit ang sarili kong kalimutan na nasasaktan din ako. hindi mo lang ako anak, tao din ako. napupuno. hindi ko kaya na forever ko na lang ineneglect yung feeling ng nasasaktan. ngayon, pasensya.. pasensya kung pinili kong pakinggan/intindihin ang sarili kong emosyon. after all, i owe it to myself. kelangan ko din bigyan ng break ang sarili ko sa 26 years mong panunumbat at pang guilt trip.

totoo atang gusto mo ng gulo. o eto sumabog na ko! oo na, ako na ang masamang anak. ako na ang walang utang na loob. ako na ang dahilan ng kahirapan ng pilipinas. ako na ang may gawa ng global warming! leche!


If your child is not showing you the love you are expecting, maybe it's time for you to evaluate how much you showed your love and care for your child. You reap what you sow!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

to all the moms out there

Posted by Gaze at 11:07 PM
please love your kids with all your heart.


the saying "mother's love is unconditional love" is sooo overrated. BS!

i miss daddy

Posted by Gaze at 1:32 AM
peanut butter sandwich and coffee will always be our thing. i don't want him to choose so i decided to leave. i missed him more when i heard this song. sing it again for me, please..



please make the pain stop already. he's all i have. :(

Saturday, October 09, 2010

someday..

Posted by Gaze at 7:48 PM
i hope there will come a day that i can forget about it. so many things has happened. i hope i can forgive and love you again. iniisip ko pa lang bumibigat na loob ko.

..i can't wait for the day that i don't have to deal with all this drama.
 

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