Ok.. Nag blog ako dahil.....

Gusto kong magmura! Putangina bakit wala akong jowa! :)) Bwaka ng inang hormones to, gusto kong mang away wala naman akong maaway! Hay nako, nababaliw na ba ako? Wooooooooooh! Pwede bang mag hire ng tao gagawin ko lang syang punching bag pag nababadtrip ako ng walang dahilan? Bwaka ng inang facebook yan, isang source ng pag spike ng mood swings ko e!

LF: Human punching bag. Please send your resume to my gmail account. There's a free coffee for every 30 minutes of ranting. LOL

I survived!

February has been a difficult month for me. I had a heavy bleeding one night and was diagnosed with ovarian cyst. My doctor told me that I have to undergo a major surgery asap so I can save my ovary for future pregnancy. I had to undergo some tests to see if I'm fit for the operation. I thought my doctor wouldn't give me a medical clearance because I'm always low blood and I have a low platelet count. I had to normalize my blood count in a span of one week.

Feb 14 came. It was easy for me to have an operation but the after effect was another story. My operation went for 3 hours. I was chilling after I woke up from my anesthesia. I can't breathe. I can hear my nurses saying "hinga! hinga!" in the background. I can hear the "toot toot" sound coming from the monitor beside me. I had to be in respirator for a couple of hours in order to help my lungs to function again. I swear, parang movie yung moment na yun. It was days after my operation that I learned that I was in a critical condition that time. My sister told me that they had to put a tube on my lungs so I can still breathe during and after the operation. I have 3 incisions on my abdomen. It hurt for the first 48 hours. Para akong nag sit ups ng mga 1500 times. Umiiyak ako everytime they are asking me to move. Ibang klase yung sakit promise.

I'm ok now. Dahan dahan lang lagi. :) There are 2 things that I've learned from this chapter:
1. I thought fighting for your life was a cliche. You'll never know the feeling unless you're the one in the situation. I'm proud I surpassed this trial. Masamang damo talaga ako. :))
2. In times like these, you'll know the people who truly love you.

 

Chong, maraming maraming salamat for being with me every step of the way. I love you too sister! :)

I'm a Certified Crammer

Ok. I think I need to spend more time in the office. I didn't notice that my workload is piling up. Gosh, I need to speed things up! I have some important bugs to fix, a project to work on and a language to learn. It's crunch time baby!

Intense!

Actually I don't have much to share today. I just feel the urge of blogging before sleeping so here..

This is the only picture that I manage to take after an intense workout with the Beckys. :)) I feel pain in every inch of my body. I did a 30 minute cardio, 3 back exercises, 2 shoulder exercises, 5 abs exercises and one minute resistance control exercise. I did that in 3 sets! Gosh, it's so painful to be beautiful these days! :))

I'm enjoying Becky Network's company. They motivate me to be fit. Working out with them is something I look forward to each day. See? You don't need a boyfriend to be happy or to be excited or to be preoccupied. You just have to find something you'll love to do in your free time. Explore! Have more friends! Enjoy! Live! :)

A busy day's reward

 

This is P@ul's lomi. I ordered beef wanton, I don't eat unprocessed beef of course. :)) Anyway, I think this is the highlight of my day. (babaw much?) I seldom eat food with "sabaw" since I don't cook and I always eat takeouts from different restos in my area.

I was stuck in a line of code for hours! RoR really takes my time lately. Been busy with lots of meetings while coding on the side. I love to multitask. I love to learn something new even if I hate reading techie stuff. I often find myself just staring at every tutorials that I'm trying to read. I want to figure it out myself. Ahihi!

We had a nice workout after office. The bekis sweat like there's no tomorrow pero ako mini mini lang. :)) I don't know what's wrong but my sweat glands are not that active even if I had cardio exercises for an hour. There's one thing that I learned today, I have to push myself to my limits. If I want results, I have to put something more than the usual. I have to give an extra effort.

It has been a busy and tiring day. Tomorrow will be a better day. Ruby on Rails, humanda ka kay Dora! :)

Dancing in the moonlight

This is my song for the week. I've been MIA in blogspot for a couple of days, been busy with a lot of stuff lately. Great stuff! :) Everything is good work wise, I've been studying Ruby on Rails and HAML that's why I don't have time to blog during the day. Working out three times a week and dinner with the "Becky Network" take my after office time. I use my weekend time to catch up with friends for some RNR. I usually go home around 12mn everyday, too busy to think of my life's telenovela. :))

I'm loving my life right now. It's good to think about nothing but yourself sometimes. It feels great. Life is about making choices, I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY! :)

Sugar rush

I don't know what's with me that makes me feel good. Everything seems light these past few days. I'm carefree and active. I love my new environment. I'm laughing and singing all the time. Now, I'm busy with a lot of things. I'm surrounded with happy people. I ignore the nega stuff in my life. I love being like this! :)

I'm back!

 

I've missed coding at night. I'm starting to learn HAML and I'm liking it. :) I find it better than what we used before. The code is cleaner and is more readable. I hope I get comfortable with it in no time. It has been a productive day. Great thing to start the workweek. :)

Beki much?

 

 Sabi ko na nga ba, birdie na lang ang kulang magiging isang ganap na beki na ko! :)) Kidding aside, seriously? May ganyang app? E di sige.. Malapit na akong maniwala na Bekis rule the world! Kayo na ang maraming options. LOL

Haay blogspot

Sana nagsasalita ka na lang.. Tulungan mo ko, sige na....

Sysnet

 

Yung totoo? Ako numenetwork? :))

Dahil sa kagustuhan kong magamit ng bonggang bongga si Posh, pinilit ko ang aking sarili na mag setup ng wifi connection sa bahay. Bakit hinde? Sabi ko na nga ba, mali ang pagkuha ko ng AS/400 na elective nung college. Kung ano ang hindi ko masyadong pinag-aralan yun pa ang nagagamit at napagkaka kitaan ko sa totoong buhay! :))

What's New?

As part of my "Oplan hanap boypren 2011" project and my mantra for this year, I signed up for a new gym membership.

 

I know I still have an active membership and tons of PT sessions in other gyms but what the heck! I want it! I want to be surrounded with happy people. I want to take different classes. I want to be more active. Besides, this is nearer to my office. Ok, I'm just making excuses. Hahaha! I mean, this is a good move. New environment, new eye candy friends. LOL!

I also bought a new iPod touch today. Meet "Posh".

 

Yes, I also have an explanation for this. I was shocked when I saw some black lines on the LCD of my old iPod classic, "Pink". Maybe because I'm using it for a couple of years already. I had to buy another one. I had to make myself happy. But I still love Pink. I'll still use it. :)

Hmmm... Talking about spending too much? Nah, that's another story! Ahihi!

The ATEs

 

This photo was taken by P@pu in front of Starbucks Security Bank.

- K@i's, C@t's, P@pu's and Mine

Being with them has always been a refreshing feeling. I always think of Sex and the City whenever we're together. Four girls dressed up, talking about everything over a cup of coffee. I must admit, I missed being with the girls. Endless talk about fashion, boys, rants and gossips. It's like a breath of fresh air. :)

LIVE!

Last night while making yosi, I saw this doormat in front of my bitch neighbor's door. (Credits for the idea BTW)

My mantra for 2011: Live this day as if it is my last.

I'll try to have a worry-free year. Fuck nega vibes! Fuck issues! I'll always make sure that I'm always having fun. Chill lang ng chill! Enjoy! Go out! Find love. BE LOVED!

"Oplan hanap boypren 2011"

"I've been dating since I was 15. I'm exhausted! Where is he?"-- Charlotte York, SATC

I'm marking January 18, 2011 as the first day of my search for true love. Seriously,  this calls for drastic measures! I have no idea where to find it. FOCUS! Where is my Mr. Big?

Wackiest gift ever

So nagkita kita kame nina Gen and Martin. Tamang catch up. Ang Martin biglang umalis, may bibilhin daw. Pag balik nya, may dala syang....

 

 

Sobrang panalo to! :)) Tawang tawa ako habang binabasa ang content. :)) Here are some pages that I find cute. Lol!

 

 

And yes, para sya talaga sa mga single. Nakakaloka! :)) Pero hindi bagay saken to. Hindi ako broken hearted nor crushing someone. Err, no answer nga ako sa questionnaires sa loob! Ano ba yan! Ganon na ba kaboring ang buhay ko? =))

Siguro its about time na maghanap hanap. Masyado na daw kase akong nagiging komportable mag isa nakakalimutan ko na ang tinatawag nating "love life". Ang hirap naman kase :)) san ko ba mahahanap yun? Sana available yun sa 711. Lagi ko kasing namimisplace ang tinatawag natin drive para ma-in love! Hmm... Sino ba? Err... Ayoko pa kasing ma-in love, tinatamad pa ko! Ang effort kase! :))

What a what!

Kakaloka naman ang tinatawag nating life! Ma-spot-an na nga lang ang comfort food ko....

 

Mmmmmmmmm...... Sarap! :))

This weekend

 

First time in months that I get excited on weekends. I'm not a fan of the beach but I think I need this. I'm not yet 100% recovered, I still have to conserve my energy. I don't care! I'm coming with 2 of my best girl friends. :) This is a time for relaxation! A great way to escape from reality! :)

Oo nga naman..

Uy bru! Ikaw naalala ko dito..

Mad

I've read ch@m!3's blog post that everybody's gone mad today. Well, I'm not mad. I feel weak. I passed out yesterday due to severe emotional stress. Got my knee and my face wounded. Sometimes when you're always mad, it drains your physical strength. I guess that's what happened to me. Knocked out.

The past 3 weeks has been a challenge for the whole family. Dealing with fights is one thing but losing a loved one is another issue. I've been acting strong for my Ate that I neglected the fact that I'm hurting too. Last weekend was tough and depressing. I almost lost it. I felt sick. I felt hanging until I fell down.

One day bed rest is not enough. I still feel weak, my face hurts and I cannot even listen to my own thoughts. I have to go back to work tomorrow. I still have to live. I hope I will be better.. Stronger.. Tougher.. I need a friend, not to ask for advice or to have someone to talk to. I need someone to hug me, to sit with me in silence. I still don't know what I'll do to solve my issues. I just want to feel better.

Kaya naman pala..

Bigla kong naisip kanina, grade 4 pala ako nung nag start akong lumande! :)) Napaka aga lang. Kaya naman pala, na reach ko na ata ang threshold ng paglandi. :)) Umabot na sa limit ang aking pamboboys kaya nawala na silang lahat ngayon. Natatandaan ko pa, bata pa lang kame ni @t3 3th31, nag uusap kame kung anong target age namen para  magka boyfriend. Tumupad naman ako. Nag boypren ako nung 14 years old. Pero yung uma-aylabyu ako ng 10 years old? Yung totoo? :)) Naaalala ko pa. Ruel yung name nung batang kapalitan ko ng aylabyu sa sulat.. Hahaha! Kasalanan ni Joe D'Mango to e! :))

LOL comment of the day

"Chong, naiisip mo pa lang gumawa ng mabuti nakakadiri na. Hindi talaga bagay sayo! :))" -- Madam

Bata pa lang ako, pinangarap ko na talagang makakuha ng "well behaved student" award. Kaso parang ang effort. Mas madali pang kumuha ng "best in math"! :)) Haaaay, kelan kaya magiging "nice" ang image ko? Mas madaling umirap kesa mag smile! Woooooh! Pangarap kong maging mabuting tao. E bakit? Wag kang kumontra, mahirap yun! :))

Abs

Ay susko! Ngayon lang ako nakakita ng abs sa tunay na buhay! Ang scenario:

Nakakita ng painting si Dora.

Dora: Sino yan?
Kuya: Ako.
Dora: Weh?
Kuya: Ayaw mo maniwala?
Dora: Ayaw. Hindi ko pa nakikita e.
Kuya: Ah teka..

Maya maya.......
Kuya: Papainit ako ng tubig maliligo ako.

E yung rumampa si Kuya ng naka twalya lang? Wet looook! Show off kung show off! :)) Jusko! 50 times ata akong nag blush! Hindi ako nakatingin! Naloka ako! =)) Totoo pala talaga yung "abs" akala ko dinodrawing lang nila yung sa TV. :)) Hay girls, mukha syang comfort food! :))

Dear Kuya,
Ikaw na yata ang pinaka magandang lalakeng nakita ko sa totoong buhay. Dinaig mo na si @ndr3w!:)) *drool*

PS: Why are you gay? RAWR!

will.i.am, Nicki Minaj - Check It Out

Stepped up in the party like my name was “that b***h”.
All these haters mad because I’m so established.
They know I’m a beast, yeah I’m a f**king savage

Haters you can kill yourself!!!

2011

I don't believe in new year's resolutions kaya mag set na lang ako ng personal goals for this year. Here they are:

1. Do not depend on others in terms of emotional stability. Kaya siguro ang weak ng tingin ko sa sarili ko now dahil masyado akong nag depend ng emotional stability sa mga tao na malapit saken. Ngayon na parang wala na sila, para tuloy akong nalagasan ng energy.
2. Dump the unnecessary people in my life. Oh yeah, I'm mean but people in everyone's life are divided into two categories: the people who love you and the people who hate you. I'm not mindful of my haters pero sometimes, there are people who's saying they love you pero hindi naman tunay sa totoong buhay. Masyado naman tayong nag eeffort kung ganon. Better save ourselves some time. Join the i-know-her-and-uhm-uhm-i-don't-give-a-damn club para hindi na din ako umasa sa inyo.
3. Go back to my carefree attitude. Ganito naman ako dati, pota ngayon pinagsisisihan ko pa ang pagiging "caring" ko. Ako din naman ang nasasaktan sa huli!

Kakaiba ba? Ganito naman ako dati, naging tamed lang ngayon.. I think it's time to put my shields on. I need to protect myself, to take care of myself. And yeah.. Tell me I'm mean, I'm a bitch, I'm selfish or whatever. But I'm like this so DEAL WITH IT!