Friday, February 23, 2007

Posted by Gaze at 2:53 PM
aaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwww................. how sweet wink wink*

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Posted by Gaze at 8:07 PM
February has been a terrible month for me.. too much work.. too much pressure.. too much stress.. many of you will say that it's part of being a programmer.. i know.. that's why i'm dealing with it.. i've been assigned in two projects that requires so much time.. i was given three weeks to finish it.. my mind was set only on one thing.. kahit anong mangyari.. i have to finish it on or before feb 16. it has been three weeks.. three freakin weeks.. three restless weeks..

spending long hours of work everyday is not a big deal for me.. even working on weekends (yes friends.. i know it's corny.. but it's true.. i've worked seven days a week!..) that has never been an issue for me.. i committed myself to this project that's why i risk everything.. i can still remember my daddy's text message saying.. "anak.. get a life! you're still young!" yup nagtatampo sya.. he told me that i don't have time for my family.. i don't have time for myself.. that my work is the only thing that matters to me.. my dad really plays a big influence in my life and it bothers me when i know that the greatest man in my life is having a thing on me.. but what to do? this time i have to set my priorities.. i have to work.. i have to compromise.. i have to make an extra effort.. i have to meet my deadline..

i've worked my ass off for this project.. i've given it all my time.. i've been very hands on to every little details of the development.. i don't know how i can still manage to smile everytime the designers give me add-ons for the site.. i don't know.. i love it.. i love what i'm doing..

one morning.. something happened.. i felt my world crashed into my face.. my spirit went down.. i didn't want to make a scene but i can't help it.. i felt so upset.. so hurt.. that moment i get to ask myself one question.. IS THE JUICE WORTH THE SQUEEZE? does the job that i love loving me in return? i don't know.. i really feel so down.. i'm not mad at anybody.. i know nobody wants me to feel this way.. i'm just hurt.. so damn hurt! do you know the feeling when you risk everything and give everything on something only to find out that it doesn't pay as much? do you know the feeling of blaming yourself eventhough you know for a fact that you've given more than enough?

don't worry i'll be ok.. i just need a time off.. time to think.. time to rest.. time to pamper myself.. oh well.. life's like that and i have to accept it.. it will pass.. don't worry.. as i always say.. "NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT!" ciao! :D

Monday, February 05, 2007

Posted by Gaze at 1:58 PM
"Never Say Goodbye"


Never been in love
Cause a girl like me
Never had someone to care for
Never thought there could be
Someone special for me
And now I'm all in love
Cause a girl like me
Waited patiently for someone
Someone to care for me
And there will never be

No more lonely, no more just me
I've been there before
Ain't goin no more
And now that you're here I
Never wanna say goodbye love
Never wanna be without you
No more cryin, no denyin'
I'm in love with you
And now that you're here I
I never wanna say goodbye love

Now it's time for me
To find out what the first time love could mean
Little scared but its cool
Cause it's worth it
Now I finally fell in love
And I know that it
Gots to be for real (So real)
It's the way that I feel
So come share my world with me
So there will never be

So I'm standin here
Arms open wide
Ready to give my heart
I'm sure this time
Love's gonna last for life
Baby I know things change
And there might be some rain
But the clouds are gonna clear
And the sun is gonna shine again
Shine light on our love baby
So let's make it last forever
 

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