The Most Annoying Person of 2010

 

He thinks he's better than anyone else. He always use his past "senior" position to get ahead. He brags about what he's done to prove he's worth. He lies about his sexuality(it's so obvious). He's "pasimpleng manyak" to younger guys. He has a tacky sense of style and humor. He never strikes me as a developer. I get irritated by just looking at him. He's like a walking "mema". He really deserve this award. TAKE IT ALL, BITCH!

torned

Eff, I hate to act like a grown up person. I hate to be the one who always have to forget. I hate to always force myself to understand. I hate to swallow my pride and make this move. I hate that odds never get it. I hate that I'm always misunderstood. I hate being alone. I hate being unloved. I hate being like this!


PS: The pain has always been here. I just learned to live with it.

m&m tea

 

Aargh! My body is yearning for it. PMS, please stop already! I've been a nega magnet for two days! RAWR!

Digg!

"You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no one’s going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting."

 Got this from here. I sooo can relate.

ayiiiiii!

 

Dear Dora Balloon,

You made me smile today. :) *spazzy dance*

Selfless

"...because what I'm about to say is probably the most selfish thing I've ever said in my life... I love you, Elena. And it is because I love you that I can't be selfish with you. Why you can't know this? I don't deserve you, but my brother does..."

I can't get over this episode. It got me thinking, what if I'm in Damon's shoes? Can I be this selfless? Why does this "relationship world" have to be this complicated? Why can't love be just a simple girl + boy = love equation? Nowadays it can be: (girl + girl = cringe OR boy + boy = no comment OR girl + boy = undefined OR girl + boy = NULL)! Eff, modern day love sucks!

And yes, I am affected. E kelan pa ko mai-in love nyan? *sigh*

on a positive note

after seeing this image, i can't help but envy the optimism of this man. it made me realize. maybe now, nobody's holding my heart. maybe now, I'm not ok. but i have this "superbeki" who holds my hand, takes care of me and makes me smile everyday. life is still good. :)

Happy Halloween!

from Friendster UI Team. :) and......

 

to you, it has been one hell of a week. thanks for being with me and for dealing with my roller coaster emotions. i may be stuck in depression if you're not by my side. :)

Can I Just Die Already?

I'm so sick of dealing with everything. Why do I have to wake up with uncertainty everyday? I'm tired of hiding my pain. Can I just say "fuck off! just let me die!" I am so tired. Nobody knows what's going on my head right now. Its just me and my thoughts, me and my feelings. Its always been -- JUST ME!

The only constant person in my life walked away from me. My only source of love and happiness. The only person who gives me a reason to believe that life is beautiful closed his doors on me. Now, how will I keep my sanity in place? I hope I won't wake up anymore. I wanna die.

masakit ba?

26 years yan ng suppressed feelings. ang sakit di ba? sinabi ko naman sayo kelangan ko ng space. wag mo ko i-provoke. wag mo kong pilitin. kaso addicted ka na ata sa conflict. o hayan! kayanin mo! sa pagka bitch kong ito, buong buhay akong nanahimik. kahit kelan hindi ako lumaban. sinanay ko ang sarili ko na baliwalain ang sama ng loob. lagi kong pinipilit ang sarili kong kalimutan na nasasaktan din ako. hindi mo lang ako anak, tao din ako. napupuno. hindi ko kaya na forever ko na lang ineneglect yung feeling ng nasasaktan. ngayon, pasensya.. pasensya kung pinili kong pakinggan/intindihin ang sarili kong emosyon. after all, i owe it to myself. kelangan ko din bigyan ng break ang sarili ko sa 26 years mong panunumbat at pang guilt trip.

totoo atang gusto mo ng gulo. o eto sumabog na ko! oo na, ako na ang masamang anak. ako na ang walang utang na loob. ako na ang dahilan ng kahirapan ng pilipinas. ako na ang may gawa ng global warming! leche!

If your child is not showing you the love you are expecting, maybe it's time for you to evaluate how much you showed your love and care for your child. You reap what you sow!