Can I Just Die Already?

I'm so sick of dealing with everything. Why do I have to wake up with uncertainty everyday? I'm tired of hiding my pain. Can I just say "fuck off! just let me die!" I am so tired. Nobody knows what's going on my head right now. Its just me and my thoughts, me and my feelings. Its always been -- JUST ME!

The only constant person in my life walked away from me. My only source of love and happiness. The only person who gives me a reason to believe that life is beautiful closed his doors on me. Now, how will I keep my sanity in place? I hope I won't wake up anymore. I wanna die.