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intro:
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missing

.. nakuha agad yung attention ko so pinanuod ko sya.. may konting kurot sa puso ko habang pinapanood yung video.. eto lang nasabi ko.. "aaaaww.. ang sweet.." naisip ko na if i were the person na ginawan ng ganon.. pupuntahan ko yung gumawa sakin non then hug ko sya.. bakit?? dahil konti na lang ang mga lalaking nagmamahal ng ganyan..
dalawang punto lang naman ang gusto kong sabihin dito:
1. gusto kong ihug ako ni benedict.. (yahoooo! come come come!)
2. saludo ko sayo bossing mark.. (increase! iiinncreeease!!!!!!)

oh by the way.. may nakalimutan akong iinclude sa credits part ng video ko.. i would like to thank my sponsors. maraming salamat kay michael buble for lending me his song and to abs-cbn for the screen shot..

oh sya sya! hindi ko na papatagalin.. eto na! please click here

haay.. sana dreams do come true talaga.. parati kita naiisip lately benedict ano ba yan! kaw lang nagpapasaya sa araw ko.. kala ko over na ko sayo e.. oh well.. baka tayo talaga.. wish wish wish!

wait for you - elliott yamin






I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

WHO'S YOUR ULTIMATE CRUSH?



Since ilang araw na rin naman akong pumepetiks at nagpapacute dito sa office.. naisip ko na mag update ng kawawa kong blog.. eto na!

he is benedict.. my ultimate crush! cute nya no? gusto ko sana yung nakaharap yung mukha nya e.. kaya lang wala akong makuha e.. ninenok ko lang yan.. hehehehe! patay na naman ako kay budji(nickname ni benedict) pag nakita nya yan.. hehehehe! bakit ba? blog ko to no! hay budj..

ilang taon ko na ring crush yang si benedict.. 6 years ko na ring pinapagpantasyahan yang si budj.. hay benedict.. my baby budji.. haha!(wish!).. naalala ko nung college.. love team kami nyan e.. ako nga lang and yung mga friends ko yung sumusuporta.. hay grabe.. kung meron man akong kaisa isang lalaking kinarir sa buong buhay ko.. sya yan.. hahahaha! totoo yun.. hehehehe!

naalala ko pa nung debut ko.. yung pinaka magandang gift na nareceive ko e yung gift ni arman.. hahaha! dun sa gift na yon may nakalagay na note saying.. "alam ko naman sa lahay ng gifts na marereceive mo tonight dito ka magiging pinakamasaya.." haha! pag bukas ko nakalagay sa picture frame si benedict! hahahaha! oo naman! nilagay ko pa yun sa kwarto ko dati.. hahahahaha! Siguro yung peak ng love team namin ni benedict e nung time ng debut ni she.. haha! i can still remember kung pano ko pinilit si she na maging partner ko si budj sa kotilyon(sensya na.. hindi ko alam spelling e.. :D ) pero sa kasamaan palad, hindi ko sya naging partner.. pero ok lang.. at least nakasayaw ko naman sya sa praktis.. haha! ang lambot ng kamay nya promise.. hahahaha!

Nung college favorite ni budj si mandy moore hehe! kaya ko nagustuhan yung a walk to remember kase feeling ko ako si mandy moore don. hehehe! nung college, may 2 fans yung love team namin ni benedict.. si kuya ariel (yung nagturo ng kotilyon) and yung mama ni she.. haha! at least may fans di ba? naalala ko pa nung nakausap ko yung mama ni she uhmm siguro nung mga last year.. tinanong nya sakin kung kamusta na daw si benedict..hehehehe! meron pa rin palang naniniwala sa nasirang love team namen.. hay budj..

last year ko sya huling nakita.. naka business attire sya.. shocks! ngiti pa lang grabe promise.. alam mo yun may kabog pa rin sa dibdib.. hay.. sana maging asawa ko si benedict.. (bakit ba? hindi naman masamang mangarap di ba?) grabe pag nangyare yun.. promise.. dream come true talaga! haha! magpapakabait na ko.. hehehehe!

nga pala.. kilala ni daddy si benedict.. alam din nyang sobrang crush ko si benedict and sya yung guy na gusto kong ligawan.. hahaha! :D

"My autobiography"

Prologue
1.Where did you take your default pic?
- don't have any :D
2.What exactly are you wearing rightnow?
- jeans and shirt
3.What is your current problem?
- am bored..
4.What makes you most happy?
- surprises
5.What's the name of the song thatyou're listening to?
- winning women
6.Has anyone close to you died recently?
- none

7.Do you ever watch mtv?
- yes

8. Whats something that really annoys you?
- deception

Chapter 1:
1.Middle name:
- bicomong
2.Nickname(s):
- gaze, days
3.Current location:
- brgy pio del pilar, makati city
4.Eye color:
- black

Chapter 2:
1.Do you live with your parents?
- no
2.Do you get along with your parent(s)?
- yes
3.Are your parentsmarried/separated/divorced?
- married
4.Do you have any Siblings?:
- yes
5. Do you have any in-laws?
- no

Chapter 3: Favorite...
1. Ice Cream:
- quezo real
2.Seasons
- none

Chapter 4: Do You..
1.Write on your hand
- no
2.Call people back:
- sometimes pag hindi ko nakakalimutan
3.Believe in love:
- not sure
4.Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
- yes
5. Have any bad habits?
- yes
6. Any mental health issues?
- wala naman

Chapter 5: Have You...
1.Broken a bone:
- no
2.Sprained stuff:
- yes! haha! right knee
3.Had physical therapy?:
- yes
4.Gotten stitches:
- yes
5.Taken painkillers?
- yes
6.Thrown up at the dentist:
- yes
9.Sworn in front of your parents:
- yes
10.Had detention:
- no
11.Been sent to the principal's office:
- guidance lang.. nung hs haha!

Chaper 6: Who/What was the last
1.Movie(s):
- devil's advocate
2.Person to text you?:
- yayie
3.Person you called:
- arman
4.Person you hugged?
- daddy
5.Person who tickled you?
- can't remember..
6.Thing you touched?:
- keyboard
7.Thing you ate?:
- hotdog
8. Thing you drank?
- fruit shake
9. Thing you said
- bye kors!

aaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwww................. how sweet wink wink*

February has been a terrible month for me.. too much work.. too much pressure.. too much stress.. many of you will say that it's part of being a programmer.. i know.. that's why i'm dealing with it.. i've been assigned in two projects that requires so much time.. i was given three weeks to finish it.. my mind was set only on one thing.. kahit anong mangyari.. i have to finish it on or before feb 16. it has been three weeks.. three freakin weeks.. three restless weeks..

spending long hours of work everyday is not a big deal for me.. even working on weekends (yes friends.. i know it's corny.. but it's true.. i've worked seven days a week!..) that has never been an issue for me.. i committed myself to this project that's why i risk everything.. i can still remember my daddy's text message saying.. "anak.. get a life! you're still young!" yup nagtatampo sya.. he told me that i don't have time for my family.. i don't have time for myself.. that my work is the only thing that matters to me.. my dad really plays a big influence in my life and it bothers me when i know that the greatest man in my life is having a thing on me.. but what to do? this time i have to set my priorities.. i have to work.. i have to compromise.. i have to make an extra effort.. i have to meet my deadline..

i've worked my ass off for this project.. i've given it all my time.. i've been very hands on to every little details of the development.. i don't know how i can still manage to smile everytime the designers give me add-ons for the site.. i don't know.. i love it.. i love what i'm doing..

one morning.. something happened.. i felt my world crashed into my face.. my spirit went down.. i didn't want to make a scene but i can't help it.. i felt so upset.. so hurt.. that moment i get to ask myself one question.. IS THE JUICE WORTH THE SQUEEZE? does the job that i love loving me in return? i don't know.. i really feel so down.. i'm not mad at anybody.. i know nobody wants me to feel this way.. i'm just hurt.. so damn hurt! do you know the feeling when you risk everything and give everything on something only to find out that it doesn't pay as much? do you know the feeling of blaming yourself eventhough you know for a fact that you've given more than enough?

don't worry i'll be ok.. i just need a time off.. time to think.. time to rest.. time to pamper myself.. oh well.. life's like that and i have to accept it.. it will pass.. don't worry.. as i always say.. "NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT!" ciao! :D

"Never Say Goodbye"


Never been in love
Cause a girl like me
Never had someone to care for
Never thought there could be
Someone special for me
And now I'm all in love
Cause a girl like me
Waited patiently for someone
Someone to care for me
And there will never be

No more lonely, no more just me
I've been there before
Ain't goin no more
And now that you're here I
Never wanna say goodbye love
Never wanna be without you
No more cryin, no denyin'
I'm in love with you
And now that you're here I
I never wanna say goodbye love

Now it's time for me
To find out what the first time love could mean
Little scared but its cool
Cause it's worth it
Now I finally fell in love
And I know that it
Gots to be for real (So real)
It's the way that I feel
So come share my world with me
So there will never be

So I'm standin here
Arms open wide
Ready to give my heart
I'm sure this time
Love's gonna last for life
Baby I know things change
And there might be some rain
But the clouds are gonna clear
And the sun is gonna shine again
Shine light on our love baby
So let's make it last forever

AnG PaGmaMahaL duMadaTinG sa TaManG oRas At TamaNg paGkaKataOn. .MinsaN
SiniSiSi Pa NatiN anG saRiLi NaTin KuNg
BaKiT
NgaYon Mo LaNg NaLamaNg MahaL Mo
Sya..
KunG aLam Mo LaNg...

NgaYon Mo LanG Yon NaLaMan Kasi EtO
YunG TiNataWag Na "TAMANG PANAHON"..
So We ThiNk Of LoVe As a PasT TimE..FLinG
At TrIp LaNg..YunG MaHaL Nya NgayOn..BuKas
HiNdi Na...BoYfriENd Nya NgaYon Pero
TaNggaP Nya Na IsaNg aRaw TaTawaGin
Nya din Yung "EX"..
MataGal Nga,,inaAboT pa Ng taOn pErO
ILaNg taoN??1? 2? 3? Tapos PaG
nagKakaSawaAn na
NagAAyaWaN Na At MaY iBa NamaN Na
NagTataGal LanG ng TaoN daHiL
naNghihiNayaNg sa PinagsamaHan. ..
BaTa Pa MasYado aNg
ganoNg magmahaL...
MaY iBa NaMaN Na MasYadOng SeryoSo At
SenSiTiBo Pag DatIng Sa baGay Na yAn..
YuNg TipO Ng TaoNg haNdaNg iRisK AnG laHat..
MagBigaY.. MagParaYa.. PaRaLaNg DoN sa
TaoNg maHaL Nya.. MerOn PaNg Iba DyaN
NaPiniPigiLaN YunG naRaRaMdaMaN Nya KasI
HigH ScHoOL PaLaNg O Di Kaya TeEnAgER
PaLaNg, GuSto Nya KasIng MaGiNg siLa
NuNg taOng Yon Sa paNahoNg seryosoHan
Na..YunG
SiGuraDo Na Sya Na Yung TaoNg Yon Nga
ang >GuSto NyanG makaSama PaNghaBanG
BuhaY..KumBaga "TAMANG PANAHON"..

ThErE's This QuOTaTioN SaYinG:
"i dont care how many lips u'vE kisd....
i dont care how many women u've embraced
i dont care how many ladies heard u say u
love dem....ol i care is d future...
not to be u'r FIRST but to be u'r LAST"..

MaSaRap MagmaHaL nG TaOng MahAL ka
Din..YunG feELiNg Nyo SouLmaTe Kayo..
KAYA KUNG PARA SAYO TALAGA
SIYA..ILANG
TAON MAN KAYO DI MAGKITA.. IL ANG TAO
MAN ANG MAHALIN NIYA.. GAANO MAN SIYA
KALAYO O MARAMI MANG HADLANG..
MAGKIKITA PA RIN KAYO KUNG TALAGANG
PARA KAYO SA ISA'T ISA...
pAg-iBiG???. ...
HinDi HinahaNap Yan..Kusa yAnG
duMaRaTinG sa "TAMANG PANAHON"..

friday afternoon.. napagod na sa pagpoprogram.. browse ng net,, punta multiply.. checked gen's site,, kita ko pic ng college friends ko..
andon si arman, si benedict, si philip, si lester, si martin, si rc, si aileen, si mich, si gen.. wala lang.. nakakalungkot.. naalala ko yung college days namin..

sse 12,, hehe yan yung block namin nung college.. si she, sya yung una kong nakilala "you want candy?" hehe yun yung una kong sinabi kay she,, tapos nakilala namin sina gen, mich and aileen,, pumasok kme sa dorm.. ang walang katapusang kwentuhan..ang walang tulugang dorm dahil nauubos ang oras sa pagkukwentuhan at pagkukulitan,,

2nd year nag start kme maging close nila arman, benedict, lester and dustin.. hay pno kse mag ddebut si she nun.. practice ng sayaw sa paco park.. paganon ganon parati kada sabado.. after ng debut,, cards naman after class.. walang katapusang pustahan.. sobrang tawanan lahat and labasan ng strategies para matapon na lahat ng tres na hawak sa deck of cards.. hay,, ang saya saya.. dumating din ang never ending na overnights sa school.. haha i can still remember yung mukha nina neri and martin nung night ng defense namin.. haha..

mga panahon na uso yung the ring, the grudge, the phone at kung ano ano pang may "the" ang title.. naalala ko pa nung nagpa reserve pa kme ng isang room sa school para lang manood ng the ring series.. hay ang saya saya tlga.. ay! at nag concert pa pala si nina noon! naalala ko na tumakas lang ako kina mommy and daddy sabi ko pa non may project kaya ako mag oovernight pero totoo manonood lang ng concert.. hay,, ay eto pa pala! naaalala ko pa yung "bente kwatro" yun yung dance step sa pinaka baduy na pinanood na movie namin nung college! sina kristine hermosa ata ang andon.. haha!

hay,, naaalala ko pa nung pumupunta pa kme sa senado.. nakakamiss.. yung orange jeep na sinasakyan namin pag walang taxi hehe.. yung mga days na tumatambay kme sa cafe para lang hintayin matapos ang class nina she,, andon lang kme,, tamang titigan lang at kulitan.. nakakamiss yung mga panahon na yon.. pag hapon deretso glorietta,, uubusin ang pera para lang mag laro sa timezone.. hay, ang sarap sarap balik balikan,,

miss ko na sila,, miss ko na mga friends ko..

1. philip - hehe para sakin sya yung pinaka cool sa lahat.. parang lahat sa knya ok.. parang lahat sa knya nasa proper place..

2. dustin - hehe nakakamiss yung cute smile nya and yung pagkabulol nya..

3. lester - hahahaha nakakamiss yung mga quotable quotes nya and yung joke nya na kahit corny e natatawa tlga ko..

4. arman - nakakamiss yung mga pamatay nyang advices.. yung pagiging shock absorber nya pag nagbbreak kme ng bf ko.. nakakamiss yung mga encouraging words nya pag down ako.. hay,, at eto pa! nakaka miss pala yung pagka teki teki nya.. haha!

5. benedict(BIGGEST CRUSH!) - nakakamiss yung ka sweetan nya sakin.. haha! oo naman sweet sya sakin kahit hindi halata..

6. aileen - hay, nakakamiss yung mga times na magkasama tayo pag uwi and pag punta ng buendia..

7. mich - nakakamiss yung mga yosi nights namin sa dorm before..

8. gen - nakakamiss yung dating gen,, yung walang pinoproblemang boys,, yung tamang kontento na pag naglalaro kme ng freecell sa AS/400 class namin..

9. she - nakakamiss yung non-stop kwentuhan about boys, about life,, samin lahat sya lang yung talagang nakaka intindi sakin e.. nakakalungkot tapos sya pa yung umalis..

hay,, miss you all guys,, if only i could turn back time.. sana nga ganon na lang.. sana naging forever na lang tayong ganon,, bata and life seemed simple.. well, things are really different now,, minsan na lang magkita kita.. minsan na lang makapag usap,, wala nang mga pusoy dos wala nang timezone.. wala nang overnights.. nakakalungkot.. namimiss ko na kayo..