Mad

I've read ch@m!3's blog post that everybody's gone mad today. Well, I'm not mad. I feel weak. I passed out yesterday due to severe emotional stress. Got my knee and my face wounded. Sometimes when you're always mad, it drains your physical strength. I guess that's what happened to me. Knocked out.

The past 3 weeks has been a challenge for the whole family. Dealing with fights is one thing but losing a loved one is another issue. I've been acting strong for my Ate that I neglected the fact that I'm hurting too. Last weekend was tough and depressing. I almost lost it. I felt sick. I felt hanging until I fell down.

One day bed rest is not enough. I still feel weak, my face hurts and I cannot even listen to my own thoughts. I have to go back to work tomorrow. I still have to live. I hope I will be better.. Stronger.. Tougher.. I need a friend, not to ask for advice or to have someone to talk to. I need someone to hug me, to sit with me in silence. I still don't know what I'll do to solve my issues. I just want to feel better.