i'm not ok and nobody gives a shit

father's day and daddy's birthday are the days that i look forward every year. lagi ako nagpaplano para kay dad, i want him to feel he's special. the day has come and i wore my best dress. maraming salamat sayo, sinira mo ang lahat.. you already have mom's love, why do you have to take on my dad's? don't you have your own family?

we don't have to like each other. you can be with my brother for all i care. just because your family's so fucked up, don't mess with mine! i can make you fucking life miserable, don't you fucking dare!

after 4 months..

i've been avoiding blogger for quite some time now. many things have happened and i think it's better not to share most of them. i've been maintaining this blog for a couple of years already and i noticed that most of my posts only boils down to two things --> work and boys.

somehow, i got tired of all this.. life has been so routinary. everything is a cycle. i've memorized every reaction, every facial expression, all the "kilig hirit", all the "kilig hirit back".history just repeats itself.. i am exhausted. and yes, commenting has been turned off on this post. i am not sure if anybody still reads this blog. i just don't want to hear people's thoughts right now. i am too tired.

thanks

....for making it happen. i could just smile all day =)

and yes, i would love to have coffee with you....everyday! =)

look what i got!

** ok this is my first post this month. im so sorry. i have two sensible blog post on queue but i don't have the freakin time to finish it. (blame it all on bugzilla! lol)

well, i didn't planned to shop today but who can resist this sweet pair of shoes?

this is so ME right? haha! ok end of share....... back to bugzilla.... more meaningful post later i promise! =)

hey you!

welcome to my closet! =) i am so proud... i'm a certified "dalaga" *wink wink* it's so pretty! i love it! =)

DORA'S "TO BUY" LIST:
1. black lace dress from topshop (check)
2. hot pink dress (check)
3. red wrap around dress
4. bloody red "fuck me" shoes (check)
5. black patent oxfords shoes
6. beige patent wedge pumps
7. sweet undergarments from topshop (check check check check!)
8. black elegant party dress (check check!)

............and................

my ultimate dream shoes *drum roll*

dear God,

I want to have a pair of Jimmy Choo's for Christmas... please.. i will be very happy. =)

- dora

DISCLAMER:
i am not a shopaholic, its just that..... with my situation right now, i need this to keep my sanity in place! (ok excuses.. lol!)

just one dance

I am thinking about you everyday. Despite my inhumane work schedule, I still find time to rekindle those moments. Little things that made my heart beat faster. Everything I do I always get a snapshot of you. The magic that I am waiting for, the spark that I'm looking for, I surprisingly found and felt with you. God, I miss you.... I am not used to the feeling of missing someone, longing for that specific person so badly... This is not me.... I hate it!

The world looks slightly different when you view it from another angle. Everything that seemed true and real to you can change almost in an instant when something, someone makes you see it in a new light.

Everything I’ve come to know is gone because you came along. I wouldn’t have it any other way. -- 55.tumblr.com

I know you'll never be mine
but I'm gonna wait for all time
to have just one dance
just one dance with you

ok..

sumesegway ng pagb-blog.... putaenaaaaaaaaaaa! namimiss ko nang matulog! ano bang feeling nun? nakalimutan ko na ang tinatawag nateng dreamland! isang bwan na akong ganito. nakakapagoooood! waaaaaaaaaaaaaah! aiza mag online kna. kelangan ko ng angst absorber! it is 2 fucking am!

i wanna be......

a superwoman.

Dear God,

Please take my back pain away.. i need to work. i need to deliver something today... pleaaase.......

PS:
let me see him today... make me happy.

- dora

because i am sad.....

i went shopping! =)

for no reason at all, i really feel awful today.. maybe it's the time of the month... maybe i miss my family... maybe i just miss my friends... or maybe im just tired. anyway, i gave myself some treat.. one bigtime shopping treat!

here's what i bought:

1. a really nice dress from topshop

price: don't ask.
this is the most expensive dress i ever bought. i've been eyeing this dress for months already but haven't had the courage to buy it because it is super expensive. it is not practical. I heard topshop is on sale so i hurried to the boutique only to find out that this specific dress is still on its original price! oh what the hell, i deserve this fancy dress! i've worked hard for it! this is the last piece on the store so it only meant that the dress is also waiting for me... it really looks good on me. =) i feel so pretty!*wink wink*

2. red pumps from janylin

original price: Php 2295
discounted price: Php 1147.5
when i had my fab topshop dress, i can only think of one shoes that will perfectly go with it. red pumps! OMG, i feel so "dalaga" wearing this.. really nice and sexy. =)

3. a pair of shorts from sm dep store

price: Php 399.95

to be honest, this is the only thing i planned on buying for today. i have out of town trip with my friends tomorrow and i wanted a new pair of shorts... then i figured i also need to buy a new..................................

4. cute slippers from sm dep store

price: Php 99.75
so cute. it matched my glow in the dark undergarment that i bought from topshop last week. heheh

i already planned my attire on friday....

and for tomorrow.

 

 

i hope everyday is a shopping day...... =)

yeah... my emotions can be a little pricey at times.. shopping is my anti depressant these days.... well, i am always sad so i shop a lot. hehe. if true love is on sale, i will buy 8 pairs of it. 4 for me, 2 for aiza and 2 for chamie! lol!

-- got to go. i have work to do. hehe =)

flaming shot

this happened a month ago when i was still a normal kid.... joke! one of sober club's flaming shots.We did it…..We did it….Hooray!

bacardi shot + fire = eeewness! lol



i can't wait til saturday... woohooo! out of town! shot!