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Ok.. Nag blog ako dahil.....

2011-08-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

Gusto kong magmura! Putangina bakit wala akong jowa! :)) Bwaka ng inang hormones to, gusto kong mang away wala naman akong maaway! Hay nako, nababaliw na ba ako? Wooooooooooh! Pwede bang mag hire ng tao gagawin ko lang syang punching bag pag nababadtrip ako ng walang dahilan? Bwaka ng inang facebook yan, isang source ng pag spike ng mood swings ko e!

LF: Human punching bag. Please send your resume to my gmail account. There's a free coffee for every 30 minutes of ranting. LOL

I survived!

2011-02-27T22:14:00.000+08:00

February has been a difficult month for me. I had a heavy bleeding one night and was diagnosed with ovarian cyst. My doctor told me that I have to undergo a major surgery asap so I can save my ovary for future pregnancy. I had to undergo some tests to see if I'm fit for the operation. I thought my doctor wouldn't give me a medical clearance because I'm always low blood and I have a low platelet count. I had to normalize my blood count in a span of one week.

Feb 14 came. It was easy for me to have an operation but the after effect was another story. My operation went for 3 hours. I was chilling after I woke up from my anesthesia. I can't breathe. I can hear my nurses saying "hinga! hinga!" in the background. I can hear the "toot toot" sound coming from the monitor beside me. I had to be in respirator for a couple of hours in order to help my lungs to function again. I swear, parang movie yung moment na yun. It was days after my operation that I learned that I was in a critical condition that time. My sister told me that they had to put a tube on my lungs so I can still breathe during and after the operation. I have 3 incisions on my abdomen. It hurt for the first 48 hours. Para akong nag sit ups ng mga 1500 times. Umiiyak ako everytime they are asking me to move. Ibang klase yung sakit promise.

I'm ok now. Dahan dahan lang lagi. :) There are 2 things that I've learned from this chapter:
1. I thought fighting for your life was a cliche. You'll never know the feeling unless you're the one in the situation. I'm proud I surpassed this trial. Masamang damo talaga ako. :))
2. In times like these, you'll know the people who truly love you.

Chong, maraming maraming salamat for being with me every step of the way. I love you too sister! :)

I'm a Certified Crammer

2011-02-02T23:40:00.001+08:00

Ok. I think I need to spend more time in the office. I didn't notice that my workload is piling up. Gosh, I need to speed things up! I have some important bugs to fix, a project to work on and a language to learn. It's crunch time baby!

Intense!

2011-02-02T02:40:00.000+08:00

Actually I don't have much to share today. I just feel the urge of blogging before sleeping so here..

This is the only picture that I manage to take after an intense workout with the Beckys. :)) I feel pain in every inch of my body. I did a 30 minute cardio, 3 back exercises, 2 shoulder exercises, 5 abs exercises and one minute resistance control exercise. I did that in 3 sets! Gosh, it's so painful to be beautiful these days! :))

I'm enjoying Becky Network's company. They motivate me to be fit. Working out with them is something I look forward to each day. See? You don't need a boyfriend to be happy or to be excited or to be preoccupied. You just have to find something you'll love to do in your free time. Explore! Have more friends! Enjoy! Live! :)

A busy day's reward

2011-02-01T01:35:00.002+08:00

This is P@ul's lomi. I ordered beef wanton, I don't eat unprocessed beef of course. :)) Anyway, I think this is the highlight of my day. (babaw much?) I seldom eat food with "sabaw" since I don't cook and I always eat takeouts from different restos in my area.

I was stuck in a line of code for hours! RoR really takes my time lately. Been busy with lots of meetings while coding on the side. I love to multitask. I love to learn something new even if I hate reading techie stuff. I often find myself just staring at every tutorials that I'm trying to read. I want to figure it out myself. Ahihi!

We had a nice workout after office. The bekis sweat like there's no tomorrow pero ako mini mini lang. :)) I don't know what's wrong but my sweat glands are not that active even if I had cardio exercises for an hour. There's one thing that I learned today, I have to push myself to my limits. If I want results, I have to put something more than the usual. I have to give an extra effort.

It has been a busy and tiring day. Tomorrow will be a better day. Ruby on Rails, humanda ka kay Dora! :)

Dancing in the moonlight

2011-01-31T01:18:00.003+08:00

This is my song for the week. I've been MIA in blogspot for a couple of days, been busy with a lot of stuff lately. Great stuff! :) Everything is good work wise, I've been studying Ruby on Rails and HAML that's why I don't have time to blog during the day. Working out three times a week and dinner with the "Becky Network" take my after office time. I use my weekend time to catch up with friends for some RNR. I usually go home around 12mn everyday, too busy to think of my life's telenovela. :))

I'm loving my life right now. It's good to think about nothing but yourself sometimes. It feels great. Life is about making choices, I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY! :)

Sugar rush

2011-01-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

I don't know what's with me that makes me feel good. Everything seems light these past few days. I'm carefree and active. I love my new environment. I'm laughing and singing all the time. Now, I'm busy with a lot of things. I'm surrounded with happy people. I ignore the nega stuff in my life. I love being like this! :)

I'm back!

2011-01-25T01:55:00.001+08:00

I've missed coding at night. I'm starting to learn HAML and I'm liking it. :) I find it better than what we used before. The code is cleaner and is more readable. I hope I get comfortable with it in no time. It has been a productive day. Great thing to start the workweek. :)

Beki much?

2011-01-24T13:24:00.002+08:00

Sabi ko na nga ba, birdie na lang ang kulang magiging isang ganap na beki na ko! :)) Kidding aside, seriously? May ganyang app? E di sige.. Malapit na akong maniwala na Bekis rule the world! Kayo na ang maraming options. LOL

Haay blogspot

2011-01-23T04:48:00.001+08:00

Sana nagsasalita ka na lang.. Tulungan mo ko, sige na....

Sysnet

2011-01-22T03:06:00.001+08:00

Yung totoo? Ako numenetwork? :))

Dahil sa kagustuhan kong magamit ng bonggang bongga si Posh, pinilit ko ang aking sarili na mag setup ng wifi connection sa bahay. Bakit hinde? Sabi ko na nga ba, mali ang pagkuha ko ng AS/400 na elective nung college. Kung ano ang hindi ko masyadong pinag-aralan yun pa ang nagagamit at napagkaka kitaan ko sa totoong buhay! :))

What's New?

2011-01-21T19:09:00.002+08:00

As part of my "Oplan hanap boypren 2011" project and my mantra for this year, I signed up for a new gym membership.

I know I still have an active membership and tons of PT sessions in other gyms but what the heck! I want it! I want to be surrounded with happy people. I want to take different classes. I want to be more active. Besides, this is nearer to my office. Ok, I'm just making excuses. Hahaha! I mean, this is a good move. New environment, new eye candy friends. LOL!

I also bought a new iPod touch today. Meet "Posh".

Yes, I also have an explanation for this. I was shocked when I saw some black lines on the LCD of my old iPod classic, "Pink". Maybe because I'm using it for a couple of years already. I had to buy another one. I had to make myself happy. But I still love Pink. I'll still use it. :)

Hmmm... Talking about spending too much? Nah, that's another story! Ahihi!

The ATEs

2011-01-21T01:53:00.004+08:00

This photo was taken by P@pu in front of Starbucks Security Bank.

- K@i's, C@t's, P@pu's and Mine

Being with them has always been a refreshing feeling. I always think of Sex and the City whenever we're together. Four girls dressed up, talking about everything over a cup of coffee. I must admit, I missed being with the girls. Endless talk about fashion, boys, rants and gossips. It's like a breath of fresh air. :)

LIVE!

2011-01-20T01:17:00.001+08:00

Last night while making yosi, I saw this doormat in front of my bitch neighbor's door. (Credits for the idea BTW)

My mantra for 2011: Live this day as if it is my last.

I'll try to have a worry-free year. Fuck nega vibes! Fuck issues! I'll always make sure that I'm always having fun. Chill lang ng chill! Enjoy! Go out! Find love. BE LOVED!

"Oplan hanap boypren 2011"

2011-01-19T01:02:00.003+08:00

"I've been dating since I was 15. I'm exhausted! Where is he?"-- Charlotte York, SATC

I'm marking January 18, 2011 as the first day of my search for true love. Seriously, this calls for drastic measures! I have no idea where to find it. FOCUS! Where is my Mr. Big?

Wackiest gift ever

2011-01-17T23:45:00.003+08:00

So nagkita kita kame nina Gen and Martin. Tamang catch up. Ang Martin biglang umalis, may bibilhin daw. Pag balik nya, may dala syang....

Sobrang panalo to! :)) Tawang tawa ako habang binabasa ang content. :)) Here are some pages that I find cute. Lol!

And yes, para sya talaga sa mga single. Nakakaloka! :)) Pero hindi bagay saken to. Hindi ako broken hearted nor crushing someone. Err, no answer nga ako sa questionnaires sa loob! Ano ba yan! Ganon na ba kaboring ang buhay ko? =))

Siguro its about time na maghanap hanap. Masyado na daw kase akong nagiging komportable mag isa nakakalimutan ko na ang tinatawag nating "love life". Ang hirap naman kase :)) san ko ba mahahanap yun? Sana available yun sa 711. Lagi ko kasing namimisplace ang tinatawag natin drive para ma-in love! Hmm... Sino ba? Err... Ayoko pa kasing ma-in love, tinatamad pa ko! Ang effort kase! :))

What a what!

2011-01-15T00:20:00.003+08:00

Kakaloka naman ang tinatawag nating life! Ma-spot-an na nga lang ang comfort food ko....

Mmmmmmmmm...... Sarap! :))

This weekend

2011-01-13T23:08:00.005+08:00

First time in months that I get excited on weekends. I'm not a fan of the beach but I think I need this. I'm not yet 100% recovered, I still have to conserve my energy. I don't care! I'm coming with 2 of my best girl friends. :) This is a time for relaxation! A great way to escape from reality! :)

Oo nga naman..

2011-01-12T13:55:00.001+08:00

Uy bru! Ikaw naalala ko dito..

Mad

2011-01-12T00:50:00.005+08:00

I've read ch@m!3's blog post that everybody's gone mad today. Well, I'm not mad. I feel weak. I passed out yesterday due to severe emotional stress. Got my knee and my face wounded. Sometimes when you're always mad, it drains your physical strength. I guess that's what happened to me. Knocked out.

The past 3 weeks has been a challenge for the whole family. Dealing with fights is one thing but losing a loved one is another issue. I've been acting strong for my Ate that I neglected the fact that I'm hurting too. Last weekend was tough and depressing. I almost lost it. I felt sick. I felt hanging until I fell down.

One day bed rest is not enough. I still feel weak, my face hurts and I cannot even listen to my own thoughts. I have to go back to work tomorrow. I still have to live. I hope I will be better.. Stronger.. Tougher.. I need a friend, not to ask for advice or to have someone to talk to. I need someone to hug me, to sit with me in silence. I still don't know what I'll do to solve my issues. I just want to feel better.

Kaya naman pala..

2011-01-08T04:56:00.003+08:00

Bigla kong naisip kanina, grade 4 pala ako nung nag start akong lumande! :)) Napaka aga lang. Kaya naman pala, na reach ko na ata ang threshold ng paglandi. :)) Umabot na sa limit ang aking pamboboys kaya nawala na silang lahat ngayon. Natatandaan ko pa, bata pa lang kame ni @t3 3th31, nag uusap kame kung anong target age namen para magka boyfriend. Tumupad naman ako. Nag boypren ako nung 14 years old. Pero yung uma-aylabyu ako ng 10 years old? Yung totoo? :)) Naaalala ko pa. Ruel yung name nung batang kapalitan ko ng aylabyu sa sulat.. Hahaha! Kasalanan ni Joe D'Mango to e! :))

LOL comment of the day

2011-01-07T01:29:00.001+08:00

"Chong, naiisip mo pa lang gumawa ng mabuti nakakadiri na. Hindi talaga bagay sayo! :))" -- Madam

Bata pa lang ako, pinangarap ko na talagang makakuha ng "well behaved student" award. Kaso parang ang effort. Mas madali pang kumuha ng "best in math"! :)) Haaaay, kelan kaya magiging "nice" ang image ko? Mas madaling umirap kesa mag smile! Woooooh! Pangarap kong maging mabuting tao. E bakit? Wag kang kumontra, mahirap yun! :))

Abs

2011-01-06T01:01:00.002+08:00

Ay susko! Ngayon lang ako nakakita ng abs sa tunay na buhay! Ang scenario:

Nakakita ng painting si Dora.

Dora: Sino yan?
Kuya: Ako.
Dora: Weh?
Kuya: Ayaw mo maniwala?
Dora: Ayaw. Hindi ko pa nakikita e.
Kuya: Ah teka..

Maya maya.......
Kuya: Papainit ako ng tubig maliligo ako.

E yung rumampa si Kuya ng naka twalya lang? Wet looook! Show off kung show off! :)) Jusko! 50 times ata akong nag blush! Hindi ako nakatingin! Naloka ako! =)) Totoo pala talaga yung "abs" akala ko dinodrawing lang nila yung sa TV. :)) Hay girls, mukha syang comfort food! :))

Dear Kuya,
Ikaw na yata ang pinaka magandang lalakeng nakita ko sa totoong buhay. Dinaig mo na si @ndr3w!:)) *drool*

PS: Why are you gay? RAWR!

will.i.am, Nicki Minaj - Check It Out

2011-01-03T22:33:00.001+08:00

Stepped up in the party like my name was “that b***h”.
All these haters mad because I’m so established.
They know I’m a beast, yeah I’m a f**king savage
Haters you can kill yourself!!!

2011

2011-01-01T05:29:00.003+08:00

I don't believe in new year's resolutions kaya mag set na lang ako ng personal goals for this year. Here they are:

Do not depend on others in terms of emotional stability. Kaya siguro ang weak ng tingin ko sa sarili ko now dahil masyado akong nag depend ng emotional stability sa mga tao na malapit saken. Ngayon na parang wala na sila, para tuloy akong nalagasan ng energy.
Dump the unnecessary people in my life. Oh yeah, I'm mean but people in everyone's life are divided into two categories: the people who love you and the people who hate you. I'm not mindful of my haters pero sometimes, there are people who's saying they love you pero hindi naman tunay sa totoong buhay. Masyado naman tayong nag eeffort kung ganon. Better save ourselves some time. Join the i-know-her-and-uhm-uhm-i-don't-give-a-damn club para hindi na din ako umasa sa inyo.
Go back to my carefree attitude. Ganito naman ako dati, pota ngayon pinagsisisihan ko pa ang pagiging "caring" ko. Ako din naman ang nasasaktan sa huli!

Kakaiba ba? Ganito naman ako dati, naging tamed lang ngayon.. I think it's time to put my shields on. I need to protect myself, to take care of myself. And yeah.. Tell me I'm mean, I'm a bitch, I'm selfish or whatever. But I'm like this so DEAL WITH IT!

Nico's 2 cents

2010-12-31T15:13:00.001+08:00

"You can’t hide. A true player responds to disaster as if nothing's happened. When they smell fear in this town, it's over... ...I find it offensive that women always feel that we have to apologize for our success. There are no flukes, there is no luck, there’s just talent and hard work, and the ability to bounce back when you’re knocked down. No more, no less." -- Nico Riley, Lipstick Jungle

Tomorrow will be the start of my new year. Clean slate! GO FOR IT! :)

Mr Big

2010-12-30T23:17:00.002+08:00

Ever thine, ever mine, ever ours. -- The Immortal Beloved Letters, Ludwig van Beethoven

Dear Mr Big,

Please tell me I'm the one...

I'm not OK

2010-12-30T15:17:00.003+08:00

I'm not OK but I will be fine.. *inhale.. exhale..* That's the spirit!

The Day After

2010-12-30T08:03:00.003+08:00

It is 6:30am and I don't feel like sleeping. I never thought I would survive my December 28th. The feeling of "sadness" is an understatement. I cried for help but no one was there. I don't know how to contain myself. I hoped to be insane. My tears were over-pouring. I have no one to talk to. I have nowhere to go.

There's one thing that kept running on my head that night. I wanted to die. I'm not the suicidal type but I really wanted to die. What if I die of crying? What if I got hit by a cab then die? Call me crazy but it hurts so much that I thought of just letting everything go. I don't know how depression feels but if depression is sadness to the nth power then I had it last night.

Today, I'm still alive. And yes, it still hurts. I'm trying everything just to lessen my pain. Baby steps as Ch@m!3 would say. I'll be ok.. In my own time. In my own way.

2010-12-29T02:20:00.004+08:00

F*CK YOU!!!

drained

2010-12-28T21:28:00.001+08:00

I've been crying endlessly the whole day. Please make it stop. Sobrang lungkot hindi ko na ata makaya..

2010-12-28T14:30:00.001+08:00

Gusto kong mag book sa malayong malayong lugar tapos hindi na ko babalik. I know I have to shake this shit all off but I don't know how to fucking do it. Ayoko nang maging nega pero wala akong mapiga kahit na konting positivity sa katawan ko ngayon.

Oo nega queen ako. Wag kang makielam, blog ko to! Tanginang buhay naman to. Gustong gusto ko nang mag give up!

PS:
Alam kong naging kaibigan ako sa inyo. ayun lang.

Woooooooh!

2010-12-28T01:32:00.001+08:00

Dear Universe,

Bakit ba ang hirap mo naman kausap? After all the shit that happened this weekend, di ba I deserve a freakin break? Facial lang naman ang hinahanap ko.. FACIAAAAL! Mahirap ba yun? Woooooooh!

PS:

Why are you so effin kupal? RAWR!!

Life

2010-12-26T19:42:00.002+08:00

Ito na siguro ang pinaka challenging na pasko sa pamilya namin. Unang beses na hindi ko maramdaman na holiday pala ngayon. Nakakagulat.. Nakakalungkot. Ang buhay nga naman, hindi mo masabi. Minsan naiisip ko, kanya kanyang bullshit lang yan sa buhay.Pero bakit ganon? Parang masyadong pinapalo ni God ang pamilya namin?

Nag aalala ako para kay Ate. Kay Ate at sa baby nya. May sarili akong iniisip pero mas importante sya sa ngayon. Kelangan kong maging malakas para sa kanya. Kami na lang dalawa ang magkasama. Kelangan nya ko ngayon. Hinding hindi ko sya iiwan.

I can't wait na makita si baby, ang kaisa isang positive na nangyare ngayong 2010.

Breathe Me

2010-12-26T02:35:00.002+08:00

This is my song for the day. What an awful Christmas. :(

Christmas 2010

2010-12-26T00:52:00.001+08:00

Ang tagal kong nakatitig sa blog post na to, wala.. Isang malaking whitespace. Nakakapagod nang malungkot. :( Nagsasawa na ba kayo? Ako rin e.:)) PUTAENAAAAAA!

IMY more!

2010-12-24T02:04:00.003+08:00

This is the only thing that made me smile today. I always look forward to seeing Yana's face every Christmas. I love seeing her big eyes when she opens my gift. Christmas will never be the same without her. Ninang Daze loves you so much, Yana! I hope to see you again soon! :)

FYI:
Yana doesn't have a facebook account. She only use friendster. She loves me that much. :)

I did it.. Hooooooray!

2010-12-21T22:30:00.001+08:00

Woooooh! At last! :)) Isang malaking check sa isa kong to do's! :)) Ansakeeeet! Ilang beses kong tinawag si God! Hahahahahaha! Yun lang, inaantok na ko! Napagod ako ng sobra sobra. :))

TO DO's

2010-12-20T19:07:00.001+08:00

Ang dami kong gustong gawin bukas! Errrr, hindi ako matahimik! leche!

If you could save me..

2010-12-20T00:01:00.003+08:00

I've been emotionally unstable for a couple of months now. One day I'm ok, next I'll be devastated. It's a constant cycle. Sometimes, I don't know what to feel anymore. I've had countless rant posts about this freaking issue. Nothing's changed. Nothing's new. Nothing's better. :(

I'm sorry for all the nega vibes that I'm writing in this blog. It's just that I don't know how to handle this and keep my sanity at the same time. I wouldn't expect everybody to understand me, sometimes I cannot understand myself too. And now I'm torned. Torned between what is right and what I need.

My life is in a hell of a roller coaster ride of drama. I've always been a fighter but this one is different. I AM BROKEN, I'm just trying to cover it. I'm incapable of fixing anything right now. I just want to focus on my own emotional stability. I just want to be strong for myself. I just want to be happy again. I just want to be the old "me" again.

I Found a Reason

2010-12-18T03:29:00.003+08:00

"what comes is better than what came before..."

On a lighter note, I realized there are people who still love me enough to deal with my kaartehan and my kadramahan. :) Thank you for coming into my life. *smiles*

Movie Night

2010-12-17T00:45:00.003+08:00

Hindi ko alam kung dapat bang matuwa si r0y pag nagpa-power dress ako dahil he's always obliged to take me out after work. :)) Tonight we watched Narnia. It's not my type of movie but I had fun. :) I'm thankful na he's always by my side (literally and figuratively). He makes me feel loved. :)

Post it!

2010-12-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

Natawa ko when I saw this in front of my unit. Ganyan ang nakikiusap! Teh, try mo kayang kausapin nanay ko? :)) Then again, that part of the building is a communal area. What can I do about it? Lol! Bitch much?

Expectations

2010-12-13T01:46:00.000+08:00

High school pa lang ako, hindi na ko nag eexpect ng masayang pasko. Nasanay na ko sa "sakto lang" ang araw na yon. Pero iba ngayon. Sa pasko, ineexpect ko nang maging punching bag ng pamilya ko. Umuwi man ako o hinde, in one way or another, papaliguan nila ako ng emotional torture. Kahit anong gawin ko, riot pa rin ang araw na yon. Hindi naman sa napaka nega ko, hinahanda ko lang sarili ko sa mga mangyayari. Hindi ko na kayang iabsorb ang mga sorpresang drama, baka mabaliw na ako.

Hindi ko kayang bumati at mag wish ng Merry Christmas. Iniiwasan kong mag fb, ayokong makakita ng masayang pamilya. Para akong sinasaksak pag nakakakita ako ng christmas tree. Isang noise pollution saken ang makarinig ng christmas songs. Ang araw ng pasko ay isang malaking urban legend na lang para sakin. Ako ay isang malaking orphan, malapit ko nang matanggap yun.

Pain Relievers

2010-12-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

Minsan naiisip ko, sana kayang makuha sa pain relievers tong nararamdaman ko. Sana isang inom lang ng gamot wala na lahat itong bigat ng dibdib ko. Ginawa ko nang lahat maging maayos lang ako. Nakakapagod nang maglakas loob. Hindi naman talaga ako ok, hindi na ko magpepretend. Nahihirapan na talaga ko, hindi ko na alam gagawin ko.

Ayoko nang magalit pero wala akong ibang mapigang emosyon. Kinain ko na ang pride ko, ako na ang bumaba.. Ano pang kulang? Bakit ang dali dali para sa inyo na i-single out ako? Bakit gustong gusto nyo na sinasaktan ako? Sana naging masamang anak na lang ako para maintindihan ko kung bakit nyo ako ginaganito. Sana maisip nyo na nasasaktan din ako, na ako ang anak nyo.

Hindi ko na alam kung ano pang pagkocomfort ang dapat kong gawin makalimutan ko lang tong nararamdaman ko. Ayoko na. Pagod na ko.

5 mos and counting..

2010-12-08T01:30:00.001+08:00

"...And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual..." -- Iris, The Holiday

I tried watching The Holiday (one of my feel good movies) but I stopped. I can't stand hearing christmas songs in the background. I feel terrible. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I don't know if I'm making sense here.. Pero.. Putangina ang sakit sakit na!

fuck December!

2010-12-03T00:39:00.001+08:00

E yung gusto kong magbaon ng gunting sa opis? Gusto nyo palang mag decorate at magpatugtog ng Christmas songs e di sana sumideline na lang kayo sa SM! Araw araw? Yung buong team? Yung totoo?! Sana maging muslim ang pilipinas para walang pasko! leche! huuuuuu! i-skip na yang december na yan! january na agad!

cute!

2010-12-02T12:52:00.000+08:00

I miss playing with my editor. I got bored this morning and decided to color it pink before I start coding. This is just a sample code from the past. Gosh, nakakamiss pala mag PHP. Hehehe :)

Ruby on Rails

2010-12-02T00:03:00.001+08:00

I love it when I'm forced to learn something new. I want to expose myself more in object oriented programming (kahit na medyo nosebleed sya). Next in line, HAML. I can't wait! :)

Powerpuff

2010-12-01T01:40:00.002+08:00

He is sugar, spice and everything nice. I had fun tonight! :) tenchuuuuuuu! :*

Bubbles

2010-11-17T22:32:00.006+08:00

One thing that I love to do is to play with bubbles. It helps me relax. I love watching colorful circles fly until they pop out. This in a way helps me shut off my existing world and enter into my "fairy fantasy land" where everything is so light and everybody is so nice.

ako? nag trekking?

2010-11-16T20:15:00.000+08:00

Dahil sa kagustuhan kong pagbigyan ang hilig ni R0y sa pag nature trip, hayan! Unang tapak pa lang, boom! Hello putek! :)) I had fun though, that was such an accomplishment for me. :)

Bwaka-ng-ina Moment of the Day

2010-11-15T03:01:00.002+08:00

I was browsing my fb contacts to kill time when I came across my high school classmate's wall. I mean, seriously? Everyday is Valentine's day? WTF! E di sige, wall mo na ang tambayan ni kupido! leche!

Argentino

2010-11-14T02:53:00.002+08:00

Ate Ethel and I were killing time in Nuvali when these kids approached me to play with my bubble toy.

Dora: Anong pangalan mo?

Little Boy: Argentino.

We were calling him "Argentino" the whole time. It was just minutes before we left when we found out that "Kurt" is his real name. :)) Bata pa lang, kumo-code name na sya! :)) Tuwang tuwa ako na I ended up giving him my bubble toy. He hugged me in return. Sweet! :)

Groupie Mode

2010-11-13T03:26:00.003+08:00

I despised groupies but this time, I don't care. LeeVon Cailao is so effin cute! And he's nice too! *sige pumikit ka pa, ipapasok na kita sa bag ko! :))* Haay, what a way to end the week. :)

The Most Annoying Person of 2010

2010-11-12T15:58:00.000+08:00

He thinks he's better than anyone else. He always use his past "senior" position to get ahead. He brags about what he's done to prove he's worth. He lies about his sexuality(it's so obvious). He's "pasimpleng manyak" to younger guys. He has a tacky sense of style and humor. He never strikes me as a developer. I get irritated by just looking at him. He's like a walking "mema". He really deserve this award. TAKE IT ALL, BITCH!

torned

2010-11-12T01:19:00.000+08:00

Eff, I hate to act like a grown up person. I hate to be the one who always have to forget. I hate to always force myself to understand. I hate to swallow my pride and make this move. I hate that odds never get it. I hate that I'm always misunderstood. I hate being alone. I hate being unloved. I hate being like this!

PS: The pain has always been here. I just learned to live with it.

m&m tea

2010-11-11T17:07:00.001+08:00

Aargh! My body is yearning for it. PMS, please stop already! I've been a nega magnet for two days! RAWR!

Digg!

2010-11-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

"You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no one’s going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting."

Got this from here. I sooo can relate.

ayiiiiii!

2010-11-08T19:06:00.000+08:00

Dear Dora Balloon,

You made me smile today. :) *spazzy dance*

Selfless

2010-11-06T02:14:00.004+08:00

"...because what I'm about to say is probably the most selfish thing I've ever said in my life... I love you, Elena. And it is because I love you that I can't be selfish with you. Why you can't know this? I don't deserve you, but my brother does..."

I can't get over this episode. It got me thinking, what if I'm in Damon's shoes? Can I be this selfless? Why does this "relationship world" have to be this complicated? Why can't love be just a simple girl + boy = love equation? Nowadays it can be: (girl + girl = cringe OR boy + boy = no comment OR girl + boy = undefined OR girl + boy = NULL)! Eff, modern day love sucks!

And yes, I am affected. E kelan pa ko mai-in love nyan? *sigh*

on a positive note

2010-11-03T22:39:00.004+08:00

after seeing this image, i can't help but envy the optimism of this man. it made me realize. maybe now, nobody's holding my heart. maybe now, I'm not ok. but i have this "superbeki" who holds my hand, takes care of me and makes me smile everyday. life is still good. :)

Happy Halloween!

2010-10-31T05:17:00.001+08:00

from Friendster UI Team. :) and......

to you, it has been one hell of a week. thanks for being with me and for dealing with my roller coaster emotions. i may be stuck in depression if you're not by my side. :)

Can I Just Die Already?

2010-10-25T21:16:00.001+08:00

I'm so sick of dealing with everything. Why do I have to wake up with uncertainty everyday? I'm tired of hiding my pain. Can I just say "fuck off! just let me die!" I am so tired. Nobody knows what's going on my head right now. Its just me and my thoughts, me and my feelings. Its always been -- JUST ME!

The only constant person in my life walked away from me. My only source of love and happiness. The only person who gives me a reason to believe that life is beautiful closed his doors on me. Now, how will I keep my sanity in place? I hope I won't wake up anymore. I wanna die.

masakit ba?

2010-10-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

26 years yan ng suppressed feelings. ang sakit di ba? sinabi ko naman sayo kelangan ko ng space. wag mo ko i-provoke. wag mo kong pilitin. kaso addicted ka na ata sa conflict. o hayan! kayanin mo! sa pagka bitch kong ito, buong buhay akong nanahimik. kahit kelan hindi ako lumaban. sinanay ko ang sarili ko na baliwalain ang sama ng loob. lagi kong pinipilit ang sarili kong kalimutan na nasasaktan din ako. hindi mo lang ako anak, tao din ako. napupuno. hindi ko kaya na forever ko na lang ineneglect yung feeling ng nasasaktan. ngayon, pasensya.. pasensya kung pinili kong pakinggan/intindihin ang sarili kong emosyon. after all, i owe it to myself. kelangan ko din bigyan ng break ang sarili ko sa 26 years mong panunumbat at pang guilt trip.

totoo atang gusto mo ng gulo. o eto sumabog na ko! oo na, ako na ang masamang anak. ako na ang walang utang na loob. ako na ang dahilan ng kahirapan ng pilipinas. ako na ang may gawa ng global warming! leche!

If your child is not showing you the love you are expecting, maybe it's time for you to evaluate how much you showed your love and care for your child. You reap what you sow!

to all the moms out there

2010-10-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

please love your kids with all your heart.

the saying "mother's love is unconditional love" is sooo overrated. BS!

i miss daddy

2010-10-19T01:32:00.001+08:00

peanut butter sandwich and coffee will always be our thing. i don't want him to choose so i decided to leave. i missed him more when i heard this song. sing it again for me, please..

please make the pain stop already. he's all i have. :(

someday..

2010-10-09T19:48:00.001+08:00

i hope there will come a day that i can forget about it. so many things has happened. i hope i can forgive and love you again. iniisip ko pa lang bumibigat na loob ko.

..i can't wait for the day that i don't have to deal with all this drama.

Trust me, I know..

2010-08-15T13:53:00.003+08:00

i feel like crap and nobody cares

2010-08-15T01:13:00.002+08:00

putanginang buhay to. at the end of the day isa lang pala ang kaibigan ko. i never felt this alone in my whole fucking life.

maybe..

2010-08-14T18:02:00.000+08:00

one day i'll wake up and all the pain will be gone.. it huts so fucking much. :(

kung pwede lang magsuka..

2010-08-10T03:01:00.001+08:00

ginawa ko na gumaan lang loob ko. wala akong pakelam. ako naman. pagod na kong isipin kayo.

help

2010-07-11T01:03:00.000+08:00

birthday na ni dad sa sunday and i want it to be special. please please help me think of a surprise. :)

dear God,

please don't let her ruin my day with my family. please? isa araw lang naman, bigay nyo na saken. thanks! :)

:)

2010-07-06T20:01:00.000+08:00

him: uwi na ko byebye
him: pagaling ka
him: ^_^
me: oker
me: ingat ka :D
him: opo

nakakatuwa.. sana tuloy tuloy na. :)

2010-07-02T01:06:00.001+08:00

siguro ang "true love" ay parang si santa clause lamang.. isa lang syang malaking "MAKE BELIEVE"!

i'm not ok and nobody gives a shit

2010-06-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

father's day and daddy's birthday are the days that i look forward every year. lagi ako nagpaplano para kay dad, i want him to feel he's special. the day has come and i wore my best dress. maraming salamat sayo, sinira mo ang lahat.. you already have mom's love, why do you have to take on my dad's? don't you have your own family?

we don't have to like each other. you can be with my brother for all i care. just because your family's so fucked up, don't mess with mine! i can make you fucking life miserable, don't you fucking dare!

after 4 months..

2010-04-20T01:51:00.000+08:00

i've been avoiding blogger for quite some time now. many things have happened and i think it's better not to share most of them. i've been maintaining this blog for a couple of years already and i noticed that most of my posts only boils down to two things --> work and boys.

somehow, i got tired of all this.. life has been so routinary. everything is a cycle. i've memorized every reaction, every facial expression, all the "kilig hirit", all the "kilig hirit back".history just repeats itself.. i am exhausted. and yes, commenting has been turned off on this post. i am not sure if anybody still reads this blog. i just don't want to hear people's thoughts right now. i am too tired.

thanks

2009-11-16T22:46:00.002+08:00

....for making it happen. i could just smile all day =)

and yes, i would love to have coffee with you....everyday! =)

look what i got!

2009-11-12T01:09:00.001+08:00

** ok this is my first post this month. im so sorry. i have two sensible blog post on queue but i don't have the freakin time to finish it. (blame it all on bugzilla! lol)

well, i didn't planned to shop today but who can resist this sweet pair of shoes?

this is so ME right? haha! ok end of share....... back to bugzilla.... more meaningful post later i promise! =)

hey you!

2009-10-27T22:14:00.004+08:00

welcome to my closet! =) i am so proud... i'm a certified "dalaga" *wink wink* it's so pretty! i love it! =)

DORA'S "TO BUY" LIST:
1. black lace dress from topshop (check)
2. hot pink dress (check)
3. red wrap around dress
4. bloody red "fuck me" shoes (check)
5. black patent oxfords shoes
6. beige patent wedge pumps
7. sweet undergarments from topshop (check check check check!)
8. black elegant party dress (check check!)

............and................

my ultimate dream shoes *drum roll*

dear God,

I want to have a pair of Jimmy Choo's for Christmas... please.. i will be very happy. =)

- dora

DISCLAMER:
i am not a shopaholic, its just that..... with my situation right now, i need this to keep my sanity in place! (ok excuses.. lol!)

just one dance

2009-10-25T03:46:00.007+08:00

I am thinking about you everyday. Despite my inhumane work schedule, I still find time to rekindle those moments. Little things that made my heart beat faster. Everything I do I always get a snapshot of you. The magic that I am waiting for, the spark that I'm looking for, I surprisingly found and felt with you. God, I miss you.... I am not used to the feeling of missing someone, longing for that specific person so badly... This is not me.... I hate it!

The world looks slightly different when you view it from another angle. Everything that seemed true and real to you can change almost in an instant when something, someone makes you see it in a new light.
Everything I’ve come to know is gone because you came along. I wouldn’t have it any other way. -- 55.tumblr.com

I know you'll never be mine
but I'm gonna wait for all time
to have just one dance
just one dance with you

ok..

2009-10-22T02:36:00.000+08:00

sumesegway ng pagb-blog.... putaenaaaaaaaaaaa! namimiss ko nang matulog! ano bang feeling nun? nakalimutan ko na ang tinatawag nateng dreamland! isang bwan na akong ganito. nakakapagoooood! waaaaaaaaaaaaaah! aiza mag online kna. kelangan ko ng angst absorber! it is 2 fucking am!

i wanna be......

2009-10-19T23:31:00.001+08:00

a superwoman.

Dear God,

Please take my back pain away.. i need to work. i need to deliver something today... pleaaase.......

PS:
let me see him today... make me happy.

- dora

because i am sad.....

2009-10-17T00:53:00.000+08:00

i went shopping! =)

for no reason at all, i really feel awful today.. maybe it's the time of the month... maybe i miss my family... maybe i just miss my friends... or maybe im just tired. anyway, i gave myself some treat.. one bigtime shopping treat!

here's what i bought:

1. a really nice dress from topshop

price: don't ask.
this is the most expensive dress i ever bought. i've been eyeing this dress for months already but haven't had the courage to buy it because it is super expensive. it is not practical. I heard topshop is on sale so i hurried to the boutique only to find out that this specific dress is still on its original price! oh what the hell, i deserve this fancy dress! i've worked hard for it! this is the last piece on the store so it only meant that the dress is also waiting for me... it really looks good on me. =) i feel so pretty!*wink wink*

2. red pumps from janylin

original price: Php 2295
discounted price: Php 1147.5
when i had my fab topshop dress, i can only think of one shoes that will perfectly go with it. red pumps! OMG, i feel so "dalaga" wearing this.. really nice and sexy. =)

3. a pair of shorts from sm dep store

price: Php 399.95

to be honest, this is the only thing i planned on buying for today. i have out of town trip with my friends tomorrow and i wanted a new pair of shorts... then i figured i also need to buy a new..................................

4. cute slippers from sm dep store

price: Php 99.75
so cute. it matched my glow in the dark undergarment that i bought from topshop last week. heheh

i already planned my attire on friday....

and for tomorrow.

i hope everyday is a shopping day...... =)

yeah... my emotions can be a little pricey at times.. shopping is my anti depressant these days.... well, i am always sad so i shop a lot. hehe. if true love is on sale, i will buy 8 pairs of it. 4 for me, 2 for aiza and 2 for chamie! lol!

-- got to go. i have work to do. hehe =)

flaming shot

2009-10-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

this happened a month ago when i was still a normal kid.... joke! one of sober club's flaming shots.We did it…..We did it….Hooray!

bacardi shot + fire = eeewness! lol

i can't wait til saturday... woohooo! out of town! shot!

for the nth time

2009-10-13T10:49:00.002+08:00

i feel bad... in times like this kelangan ko ng mag aalaga saken... sawa na ko alagaan ang sarili ko magisa... i am so tired.. so sad... pms ba to? i wanna cry... i wanna shout... motherfucker! i am so tired!

hello laptop

2009-10-11T15:24:00.000+08:00

naiiyak ako. wala akong time kahit matulog ngayon. sabi ko magshshopping ako to pamper myself but i don't have a f*cking time right now! i cannot spare even 2 hours to pamper myself. i miss my friends.. i miss my family. square na ba mukha ko? feeling ko mukha na akong laptop ngayon.... kahit sa yosi break nagbabasa ako ng nodes ng xml.. o ha.. o ha.. i told you what my life is like right now.....

anyway... enough of the rants.. konti na lang matatapos na..... KONTI NA LAAAAAAAANG! sana matuwa si boss.. sana makuha ko yung big paycheck.... SHOPPING GALOOOOORE!

busy busy

2009-10-09T00:11:00.000+08:00

i am literally super busy right now. i can't even find time to sleep. lately, my only rest is when im on a cab or my "nakaw na tulog" at night. yeah.. i am doing a lot of things.. web stuff. yeah i'm such a dork.... i need a jowa!

freak!

2009-10-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

major update:
ALL MY INTERNET ACCOUNTS HAS BEEN HACKED! mother f*cker!

now i know what stalking really means.. whoever you are, i'll pray for you. yeah.. i pray to God to take you on your sleep! I REALLY REALLY HATE YOU! YOU ARE CRAZY! go to hell you son of a b*tch! c'mon! you can do better than that! JERK!

funny

2009-09-22T21:24:00.000+08:00

nag brat attack na naman ako kanina.. e pano...

ang scenario: offline ang lahat ng bpi sa buong paseo de roxas. super pissed si dora sabay tawag sa daddy nya.

dora: hello dad, bakit offline ang bpi? lahat ng bangko offline hindi ako maka withdraw.
dad: nagsi-system upgrade anak.
dora: e bakit kelangan ngayon mag system upgrade? gano katagal yan?
dad: 1 oras.
dora: 1 oras?!? e bakit hindi mo sinabi saken? hindi tuloy ako maka withdraw!
dad: mamaya ka na mag withdraw baka ma debit ka pa.
dora: e anong gagawin ko kelangan ko na magwithdraw? tatry ko dito sa bangko sa tabi.

si dora pagdating sa bangko..... yay! online na! sabay text kay dad.

dora: online na! hehe
dad: buti naman.

oh yeah.. i'm such a brat. i know..that's what i love about daddy, he always know how to handle my hormonal attacks. fine fine, i know i said i will change. oh what the hell! i am me. i am not that cruel you know that!

malinis na puso

2009-09-15T20:10:00.003+08:00

believe it or not, gusto kong maging mabuting tao. so.......... i've come up with 3 things na inniimplement ko na (or coming soon pa lang) sa life ko.

1. give more to charity
    - nagt-tip na ko sa taxi.. iniisip ko na lang, makakatulong sa kanila pag hindi ko na lang kukunin yung sukli ko pag hindi naman kalakihan.
- madalas ko na pinagshoshopping ang kapatid ko na walang kapalit na serbisyo. lol!

2. control your temper
   - oh yeah... i'm trying not to be a brat most of the time. nagta-try na ko mag taas ng EQ ngayon.. minsan guilty ako... minsan natatarayan ko pa rin yung care taker ng pad ko (pano kase laging nasa telepono).. yeah im sorry. im still adjusting.

3. do not say or think of anything bad about others
    - e di inadmit ko na! guilty as charged! haha! ayoko na nga e.. AYOKO NAAAAAAA! pero what to do? tinatry ko wag sabihin pero nagkakaron naman ng thought bubble sa head ko...

3 na lang muna.. 3 lang kaya ko i-commit for now e..

minsan iniisip ko, graduate ba ako ng isang bitch academy or something? hindi naman ako masamang tao pero hindi din naman ako mabuti! e ano ako? hmmmmm ako ba ang gradient between black to white? OMG! i am not evil, i am just not that nice!

i need to have some soul searching!

mr. nurse

2009-09-10T00:11:00.002+08:00

Dear Mr. Nurse,

Pwede mo bang alagaan ang heart ko? I hope you know CPR because you take my breath away!

masakit ba? masakit ba nung nahulog ka sa langit? siguro maraming ganyan sa heaven. haaay take me there! take me there!

may gusto ka ba? kelangan mo ba ng bagong cellphone? laptop? rubber shoes? masipag naman akong tao mr nurse, pwedeng hindi ka na magtrabaho.. ako na bahala sayo. hindi naman ako demanding. isa lang ang task mo, ang ibsan ang kalungkutan ng puso ko.

isa lang naman ang gusto kong malaman........ mr nurse, do you believe in love at first site, or do i have to walk by again? *wink wink*

tamang kwento lang

2009-08-29T03:41:00.004+08:00

absent na naman ata si madam, nakapag palit na ko ng template hindi pa nag oonline.. maganda at maraming nangyare sa araw ko........

1. simulan naten ng umaga, maaga akong gumising para pumunta sa barangay hall at kumuha ng cedula. ang gobyerno talaga parang public school ang opisina. lol! first time ko lang gumawa ng ganyang transaksyon na hindi kasama ang nanay ko. hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin.. kaya yun.... nakapagbayad ako ng mahal....

cedula girl: neng Php 518.
dora: 518? sabi ng mommy ko 10 pesos lang yan e!
cedula girl: (explain explain chu chu chu chu)

p*ki ng ina 518! 518 para sa isang maliit na papeeeeel! sama ng loob koooooooooo! since nandon na din naman ako, bayad na lang ako.. pero bwakana bitch! naisahan ako dun a..

2. pagdating ng 1130 umalis ako ng opisina para mag lunch sa bundok ng mckinley. nakakamiss din naman pala ang mga jologs and not-so-jologs kong officemates. nililinis ata ni motherboard ang kanyang kunsensya kaya sya nagpapakain araw araw. umalis ako sa bundok mga bandang 2 (ako na! ako na ang 3 hours mag lunch! lol!) dala dala ang bonggang bonggang pangkabuhayan package! wooohoooo! napakasarap mabuhay!

3. 230 ako nakarating ng opisina.. minadali kong tapusin ang tinatawag kong "task" para naman hindi masyadong nakakahiya kay boss...... ok moving on..... tama na muna ang programming stuff..

4. nag ym ang nakatampuhan kong kaibigan... ayun ok naman, alam na siguro nya kung pano ko tanchahin. goodjob kase binigyan namen ng panahon para palipasin ang init ng pangyayare at bugso ng damdamin. dahil kelangan namen mag catch up, nagshopping kame ng bigtime pagkatapos ng trabaho. abangan nyo ang soot ko sa tuesday. lol! oo na katas! alam ko.. lol!

speaking of tuesday, chong kitakits! TBA ang location.. oo madam, sa wednesday kna naman makakatulog dahil required ang attendance mo!

to sum it all up, etp ang mga conclusions ko:
1. nakakamiss magmura. lol! putek twice a week na lang ata ako nagmumura ngayon! shet! nangangati na ang dila ko!
2. it really is so nice to have someone to talk to...
3. masarap din maging jologs minsan.
4. inaantok na ko, ngayon lang nag online si madam.. (lagi ko sya dinadamayan sa friday shift nya)
5. fab ang birthday dress ko. lol!

paasa ka

2009-08-27T00:17:00.000+08:00

leche!

my dream birthday

2009-08-25T23:47:00.004+08:00

ilang taon na din na parang lumilipas lang na araw ang birthday ko.. yung tipong napadaan lang... ganito siguro talaga pag namumuhay kang mag isa. parati kong kasama mga kaibigan ko, yet i feel alone... i feel empty.... i feel sad.... oh yeah, birthday blues.

you know what i really really miss on my birthday? for 20 years, every waking birthdays of my life, i would wake up hearing my dad's voice saying "happy birthday taba!" aaaw, bigla akong nalungkot. i miss daddy, i miss my family. dad will cook fetuccine alfredo, the best fetuccine in town! yan ang default na handa sa bahay. never nawala ang fetuccine sa kahit anong okasyon.. and you know what? hindi ako nagsasawa.. the best ever! and at night, before i go to sleep, sisilipin nya ko sa kwarto ko. hihintayin nya na makatulog ako. sya lagi yung taga patay ng ilaw ng room ko. para bang mine-make sure nya na sya yung mag open and mag close ng birthday ko. eto yung default kong birthday sa bahay... still, i am happy and i feel special.

syempre i still want a celebration with my friends but i'm more excited in celebrating it at home... simple but sweet. :)

last kiss

2009-08-25T00:11:00.007+08:00

Sabi nila choosy daw ako, low EQ, mataray, mataas standards pero hinde.. Hindi ko pa lang sya nakikita.. I just want my next one to be my last one. :)

"The right guy, he's out there. I'm not just gonna go kiss a whole bunch of losers to get to him... when I finally get kissed, I'll know. I've kissed a guy, I just haven't felt that thing... That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time." -- Josie Gellar, Never Been Kissed

10 days na lang!

2009-08-22T21:02:00.002+08:00

¡feliz cumpleaños! see you there! *wink wink*

spot-an mo to

2009-08-19T00:44:00.004+08:00

iniiwasan kong mag strike ang brain cells ko kaya simple at maiksi lang ang post na to. last saturday, i cut my hair short.. really really short... hehehe!

yun lang.. end of share..

can we stay like this forever?

2009-08-16T21:34:00.010+08:00

5 years ago we were like this..

kumakanta ng where's the love sa philman, umoovernight ng walang nagagawa sa 8th floor, chumachant sa calculus.. parang kelan lang ng ginawa nateng hobby ang mag pusoy dos at ang mag tong-its sa caf at sa miding.. laro lang ng laro tayo noon hanggang sa magtapos tayo at magtrabaho.

nanatili ang magandang pagsasamahan. linggo linggong nag iinuman.

halos naging stockholders na tayo ng w grill. araw araw na conference sa yahoo. ang unlimited na comments sa multiply.. nakakamiss ang mga panahon...

sabi nga nila..... a picture paints a thousand words.....

nalulungkot ako and i can't say why.. totoo ngang hindi na tayo mga bata. hindi na grades ang pinoproblema naten.. waaah! this is soooo sad! paabot nga ng baso!

we are like this.....

we are f*cking adults! shot!

tampuhan

2009-08-06T01:23:00.003+08:00

itago na lang naten sya sa pangalang junior. si junior at ako ay opismates sa bundok ng mckinley. hindi ko masasabing talagang magkaibigan kame pero nakakalokohan at nakakakwentuhan ko sya. masayang kausap si junior. punong puno sya ng sense of humor.

dumating ang masaklap na balita nung hulyo. nagpaka otistik ako sa opisina.. bihira akong makipag usap sa ibang tao. naayos ang problema ko. back to normal na naman si dora. isang araw sa yosihan sa bundok...

ang drama:
dora: hi junior!
junior: deadma (masama ang mukha)
dora: o bakit?
junior: galit ako
dora: kanino? bakit?
junior: deadma
dora: saken?
junior: deadma sabay sabi sa mga kasama ng "tara na! akyat na tayo!"
supporting actor: tinapik ang likod ni dora sabay alis
dora: wow may something!

huwaw ang taray ng exit mo boi! e di ok.. ako deadma lang.. hanggang sa napansin kong hindi nga ako kinakausap ni junior.. isang hapon sa yosihan na naman....

ang drama:
dora: uy ano galit ka pa rin saken?
junior: pwede ba nag iisip ako ng trabaho dito!
dora: ok fine

kanina sa ym, ang drama: si dora nag reak sa status message..
dora: bkt?
junior: bkit ano?
dora: bkt work sucks
junior: db obvious?
dora: a..
dora: haha
dora: **** sucks
dora: *** sucks
dora: junior
dora: may problema ka ba saken
dora: ano ba issue mo
dora: tagal na kita tinatanong
dora: ok fine
dora: forget i asked

uhm.. ano to jowa? nagpapa amo ka ba? sabihin mo lang kase hindi ko hobby yun! hindi naman ako masyadong affected pero it bugs me pag alam kong may nagtatampo saken.. pero wow lang.. hindi ko gawain na mang amo.. hanggang 3 lang ang limit ko sa pagtatanong.. after nun wala na.. mabilis akong kausap.. kung ayaw mo e di fine.. saka sa usapang magkaibigang babae at lalake, parang hindi ata madalas na role ng lalake ang magtampo, madalas yang nasa script ng babae! di ba? di ba? di ba? so kung ako sayo sabihin mo na... ano ba? uhm.... may nasabi ba ko? may nagawa ba ko? binreak ko ba ang heart mo? haha chika lang.. pero ano ngaaaaaaaaa? sobrang wala akong idea... oh well.. sabi ko nga pagod na ko... kung ako sayo junior isulat mo na lang yan kay ate charo papanoorin ko na lang sa tv dahil inaantok na ko.. pagod na ko magtanong!